I watched a video of a man who has died a few times and now helps people in the dying process. I think it might help you too. i am no longer afraid of  'death' myself. Afetr all we are all born and we all die, it is the process we are afraid of and for some it is what comes after. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rDrDYPzbvlc
Thankyou again for your in-depth input xxx