The brief story:

A patient came in irritable and potentially violent and we just happen to have a fully packed emergency room that makes it difficult to accommodate them. So we had to troubleshoot and try to make everyone's lives easier by just trying to get the patient out the ER and into the psychiatric ward as quickly as possible but due to some policy changes that we had to adhere to, we just to take a few more steps that makes it paradoxically convenient to have the patient registered in the system as what we've been told to do during the previous meetings. 

But apparently, the recurrent interplay of social stigma for mental health, Bureaucracy at it's finest, and just same old inefficiencies in the system made it difficult for everyone involved. Everything was resolved after some long talking and the only drama was being required to file an incident report cause the other camp decided to change the policy in contrast to what was previously agreed. Notice how much I skipped out a lot of important details? not that they were unimportant to the story, it's just the situation wasn't the point of the post and I wouldn't want to bore you with the nitty gritty parts. 

> It's nice that people are more aware about how important their mental health is and there are more people seeking help for it. What grinds my gears are those that do lip service about the advocacy. Everyone's a mental health advocate until  they meet someone who is in their acute psychosis doing bizarre behaviors. Then they avoid these people like the plague instead of doing something to help. You start to see who is the person behind the facade. 

> When people care about other people struggling with mental health issues, they think of those anxious or depressed types, most of the time. But people who are in their psychotic state also need compassion and even if they aren't as violent as people make them out to be, it seems there's a huge boundary for empathy for these cases. While some cases appear they haven't taken a bath in years, can't talk with sense, disoriented, aggressive, out of touch with reality, these conditions are still part of the spectrum of mental health disorders and in need of compassion just as the sane ones too. I'll end this train of thought here as I went into tangent. 

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I lived with for years with the idea that my grammar in English sucks balls and I just came to accept it without doing anything about. I just know I'm intentionally bad at the language I'm most confident about and there's no need for coddling my ego about it. The posts I write are just watered down versions of how I approach formal writing. 

I had my report ran through some checks and it came out with only 10% suggestions/errors. That was news considering I thought I'd failed more than half of it in terms of proper English grammar. 

A point to reflect. I'm studying cognitive behavioral therapy and applying it to myself just cause I want to. One area is trying to challenge your own prophecies by doing what you perceive the end result will be prior versus what the end result is then reflecting on how your perceptions, attitude and behavior shape your experience for better insight. 

So my grammar wasn't as bad when I really put my mind to it. people told me this for a long time but it became my delusion that it's just bad and it became my own truth. I think people should try this low commitment tests to see if their idea about themselves are true once in a while. 

Working my own micro self improvements daily. 
Thanks for your time.