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<p>This weekend has been spent playing online casino. I made bets, won credits and lost it all again, but all in all, it was a good experience. It all started with receiving free spins and free deposits when making an account on the various online casinos. I created accounts on every one of them and played for free deposits and spins. It was fun. And addictive. One of my biggest weaknesses are the slots machines. Games have always had an addictive effect on me. I forget everything else in life when I become deep sunken into a game, and so it has always been since I was a little kid. Games are one of my major interests, and one of my biggest weaknesses. But it was mostly about computer games and so on, I have always kept myself from gambling and the likes of it so far, which I am happy for. But why I started was because I had a boring Sunday evening and suddenly had the urge to test gambling.</p>
<h2>The free spins yielded much profit but I quickly lost the credits again. </h2>
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<p>So it is with slot machines, they are so easy to manage, but the probabilities of losing are greater, everything is just pure luck. But they are so addictive, you think that you will win the jackpot again and again and suddenly you have no money left. Luckily I only gambled with free credits. I still hadn't begun to make deposits yet. But I was stuck for the actual gameplay, which is again just based on luck. It was strange. I usually play games that are progressive, that makes so it easier for you to win long term, that evolves you to become better and stronger. But here I got addicted to luck. And the dream to win big I guess.</p>
<h2>I lied, I have gambled before. But mostly scratch cards. </h2>
<p>Have probably put $50 on scratch cards throughout my entire life. Which is not much, but no profit there either. I'm not a gambler, but it happens that one's ought to try one's luck and I have really bad luck for the most part. But anyway, thanks to the free credits, I got a glimpse of how this world operates. I was never taught before and here I sit and read tips and tricks about slot machines, on how to make the minimum / maximum bet for the best possible outcome. Listening to people who have played casino for years and take part of their methods, reading about dreams coming true and nightmarish scenarios where people lose everything. And it is so common. It opened my eyes how common this is and that it has always been for years since people began to make bets in the dawn of mankind.</p>
<p>So I started to make deposits. I started with $10 and operated the slot machines. And then they were gone. I tried again and this time, it went better. I had a turnover of $80 but I was still new to this world so I lost that amount eventually. But why didn't I stopped when I won so much? The problem with gambling is that when you're  winning, that's when your addiction starts to build up, you don't know when to quit because when you're on a roll, you just want more. It just goes on and on until the money is gone again and you've just learned another lesson. So here it goes, and I manage to make a deposit of $80 in the course of 20 hours of gameplay with some profits but finally losing it all. $80 poorer and here I thought about quitting altogether. Gambling was not for me, I thought, but then my balance went $130 for no reason, then I remembered the bingo ticket I bought for 90cents, it had won me the $130. I won back my losses and was again on the plus side. And since I decided to stop completely now I had technically made a profit. And I was happy that I got to experience this world in that way. I will never go back.</p>
<h2>That's what I thought, but remember when I mentioned that by winning, thats when the addiction kicks in? </h2>
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<p>Yup, exactly, I could not just leave the world that way. Not after that huge profit. That profit created a craving within me I was aware I wouldn't be able to push away. Like learning to ride a bike for the first time I finally understood why people gamble and why they expose themselves to this kind of thing. The game is exciting and gives crazy kicks. A challenge that needs to be contended once you've been rewarded a little and waiting for that moment when you're hitting the winning combination, getting the jackpot. And I feel that I've become wiser and more mature when I know more what gambling is. Something I recommend most people to refrain from but I'm glad that I experienced. For it is just that what life is about, to try things and get educated. Not to live in the old rules learned and be open-minded. Gambling is fun if you want to learn about it.</p>
<p>Am I pleased with myself ? Nah, I'm not, but at the same time, I know exactly what to expect when I gamble in the future and this month I'm set $30 negative on my gamblin expenses. I'll be focusin on writing instead.</p>