<center> [](https://3speak.co/watch?v=anarkia/hjzshzcs) ▶️ [Watch on 3Speak](https://3speak.co/watch?v=anarkia/hjzshzcs) </center> --- Hi! So, this is another original composition of mine entitled: "What I Feel Inside." I wrote this on a very dark moment of my life, September 21, 2020. I was heavily depressed. Killing myself passed by many times in my head but I never did once obeyed doing it. (safe) The lyrics speaks for itself. Its metaphors and bluntness colors the song. I was more likely referring to my father here and most of the people who are close to me. But let's not dig deep into that. At that time, living in my house was suffocating. But it was a good thing that writing songs was there to pick up the pieces. As I have said from my previous blog: Who Am I?, I have stated there how music is therapeutic to me. And it is and will always will be. As you all know, I make my songs raw. I recorded this on the spot with only ONE take. I didn't add so much voicings or other instruments cause I have thought that the song would be more true and sincere if sang alone and softly. The feelings sang were raw. I don't know if you guys would notice it by my voice was shaking—I was on the verge of crying. I don't intend to magnify negative feelings here but my song is just a reflection and a description of how I "really" felt at that time. Hope you guys enjoy it still though :) Lyrics coming at you in super sonic speed! Stanza 1: I'm tired Inside and out I just wanna lay on the grass I wanna cry But the tears wont come out Cause I don't have the right I'm scared But I don't wanna let My loved ones know I'm sad But I hide it on my smile Cause jokes are worthwhile Cho: I'm pressured On everything's around me Why cant people see that I only got two hands I only got two feet Why cant people see that Stanza 2: I lie Of what I really feel inside The darkness i have to hide I'm confused Of what I really should be doing for you My mind's going white (Cho) I'm trying so hard day by day Trying to fight what I cant take But why cant people see that I feel like dying everyday But I love you so I will stay But why can't you see that Bridge: I just want to end it here Silence all the noise in my ear Cause I am just tired of hearing you speak I know what's between the wrong and right I know what to do to be free and fly But my heart chose to say you goodnight So let me stay in my room No one will understand me anyway So lock the door Shut the window pane And let me say goodnight See you on the next life thumbnail credit: https://www.pinterest.ph/pin/2533343513109251/ --- ▶️ [3Speak](https://3speak.co/watch?v=anarkia/hjzshzcs)
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| last_payout | 2021-01-19 06:45:09 | ||||||||||||||||||||||||
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| lays | 0 | 591,898,924 | 2.25% | ||
| amritadeva | 0 | 1,240,591,379 | 2.25% | ||
| eonwarped | 0 | 191,390,633,917 | 7.5% | ||
| postpromoter | 0 | 197,767,383,413 | 4.5% | ||
| mejustandrew | 0 | 8,174,662,715 | 12.5% | ||
| bluefinstudios | 0 | 729,272,736 | 1.35% | ||
| steveconnor | 0 | 3,055,695,568 | 2.25% | ||
| sankysanket18 | 0 | 5,294,034,947 | 2.25% | ||
| lordnigel | 0 | 1,164,415,922 | 14% | ||
| nicole-st | 0 | 611,908,696 | 2.25% | ||
| smartsteem | 0 | 609,602,274,081 | 10% | ||
| drmake | 0 | 2,541,730,061 | 2.25% | ||
| cataluz | 0 | 1,660,131,687 | 2.25% | ||
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| pechichemena | 0 | 524,672,668 | 0.9% | ||
| itchyfeetdonica | 0 | 44,798,682,057 | 5% | ||
| kenadis | 0 | 557,869,912 | 2.25% | ||
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| tomatom | 0 | 1,536,529,886 | 12.5% | ||
| danaedwards | 0 | 551,510,298 | 4.5% | ||
| gordon92 | 0 | 546,389,451 | 2.25% | ||
| stahlberg | 0 | 1,007,374,166 | 2.25% | ||
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| fineartnow | 0 | 2,453,639,491 | 2.25% | ||
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| ocd-witness | 0 | 519,193,511,037 | 25% | ||
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| beverages | 0 | 9,485,014,534 | 2.25% | ||
| lerma | 0 | 1,353,787,691 | 25% | ||
| verhp11 | 0 | 1,106,656,642 | 1% | ||
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| chrislybear | 0 | 565,475,166 | 3.6% | ||
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| frassman | 0 | 970,290,554 | 6% | ||
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| greendo | 0 | 1,168,885,137 | 25% | ||
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| blainjones | 0 | 897,949,124 | 0.9% | ||
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| mightynick | 0 | 575,481,464 | 0.9% | ||
| gwilberiol | 0 | 8,053,354,702 | 4.05% | ||
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| rokarmy | 0 | 1,576,671,381 | 0.9% | ||
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| rokairforce | 0 | 19,771,432,856 | 0.9% | ||
| ocdb | 0 | 51,915,652,393,476 | 20% | ||
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| deeanndmathews | 0 | 1,570,587,973 | 2.25% | ||
| pearltwin | 0 | 1,853,718,310 | 0.9% | ||
| scholaris | 0 | 5,347,229,216 | 1.12% | ||
| fractalfrank | 0 | 7,483,558,161 | 2.25% | ||
| titan-c | 0 | 1,586,877,639 | 4.5% | ||
| mind.force | 0 | 654,400,480 | 1.12% | ||
| athomewithcraig | 0 | 844,485,444 | 12.5% | ||
| rosana6 | 0 | 569,827,891 | 2.25% | ||
| zeesh | 0 | 1,949,331,923 | 12.5% | ||
| joshmania | 0 | 1,236,829,302 | 1.12% | ||
| zyzzyva | 0 | 1,217,166,941 | 4.5% | ||
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| pavelsku | 0 | 1,458,791,640 | 2.25% | ||
| roamingsparrow | 0 | 1,545,748,338 | 2.25% | ||
| crypto.currents | 0 | 693,709,853 | 100% | ||
| gloriaolar | 0 | 3,387,828,748 | 2.25% | ||
| marblesz | 0 | 742,251,354 | 12% | ||
| mengene | 0 | 1,195,061,117 | 12.5% | ||
| dpend.active | 0 | 4,899,878,836 | 5% | ||
| fengchao | 0 | 13,886,611,037 | 3% | ||
| laruche | 0 | 27,248,616,692 | 0.6% | ||
| hiveyoda | 0 | 530,083,418 | 25% | ||
| hornetsnest | 0 | 4,401,026,065 | 2.25% | ||
| master-lamps | 0 | 5,678,739,861 | 100% | ||
| peterpanpan | 0 | 1,126,981,156 | 0.9% | ||
| maitt87 | 0 | 686,685,757 | 2.25% | ||
| gradeon | 0 | 587,773,597 | 4.5% | ||
| hiveonboard | 0 | 12,595,142,806 | 7.5% | ||
| ninnu | 0 | 931,363,857 | 0.22% | ||
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| iameden | 0 | 1,239,532,913 | 12.5% | ||
| rihc94 | 0 | 596,148,738 | 2.25% | ||
| hive.curation | 0 | 739,839,604,536 | 10% | ||
| danielapevs | 0 | 569,977,471 | 2.25% | ||
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| koxmicart | 0 | 0 | 100% | ||
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| sagittariusarrow | 0 | 129,676,924 | 100% |
Hi anarkia, <div class="pull-right"> https://hiveitimages.com/DQmXgrYG8AKimJKRSu2urPB5SPcftN6GCGx2gVJJMwBkuTu/Curie%20Logo%2075px.png </div> This post has been upvoted by the Curie community curation project and associated vote trail as exceptional content (human curated and reviewed). Have a great day :) <br> Visit <a href="http://curiehive.com/">curiehive.com</a> or join the <a href="https://discord.gg/G6RPUMu">Curie Discord community</a> to learn more.
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|---|---|
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thank you so much :)
| author | anarkia |
|---|---|
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Am glad you didn't listen to your internal voices to take drastic actions. I can only suggest talking about what is bothering you so much. With people who do understand you, or those who understand what you may go through. But, I may be a little bit too pragmatic here...but ok, I'm a guy and guy's think in solutions :) Again, super recording: - Raw: Cool! - One take: Super! - Words: Sad! - Therapeutic for you: Cool and please continue :)
| author | edje |
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Yeah. I'm blessed to have some friends that I can actually talk stuff like these even if they're only a few of them. They listen. :) hahaha yeah, words are really sad. The last stanza talked about suicide. hahaha Thank you so much, man. I will :)
| author | anarkia |
|---|---|
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> Yeah. I'm blessed to have some friends that I can actually talk stuff like these even if they're only a few of them. They listen. :) You are not doing bad at all! Many of us may wish we have a few really good friends with whom we can share everything with. You would be surprised how many people don't really talk about the deepest inner feelings with others, or don't have anybody who they can talk with. 💃🎶🕺
| author | edje |
|---|---|
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Thanks for sharing, stick around.
| author | manniman |
|---|---|
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You're welcome man. Thanks too :)
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