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Feeling nausea was regular for her these days, apart from having less appetite Esra confronted opposition. Her in-laws targeted her for not taking good care of herself. Recalling the period when her mom gave her food when she was involved with her studies. No matter how angry she was, someone was there to loosen up her mood. Her brother came flying to tell her that he will ride to eat ice cream. She rushed to get the back seat of the bike. Spending days like a free bird there was no limitation before marriage. No one prohibited her from dressing or eating. Strolling the whole night on each occasion and saying sorry each time without feeling guilty by heart. Tom arrived into her life and the magic of marriage happened shortly. On the first night, he implored her to become a mature housewife. Because his mom warned him to remake the girl and give rise to the one who would act maturely. Esra didn't argue, instead, she attended to each word carefully. She took her clothes off and wore the dress in which Esra was no more childish. Tom was delighted that he behaved manley on the first day. 

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Life started with stillness, everyone was enthusiastic in her life now. From her sense of dressing to talking style stereotypes were criticizing her.  She acquired how they expected. First of all, they were having an issue with her lifestyle and now they wanted her kids. She never discussed these issues with Tom because he was also the one who judged others for their wealth, status, and everything. Esra thought multiple times about why she was coupled to this family. But it was an order of marriage for her. She has no other choice than to say yes. Because the groom was economically stable and decent looking too. She has to remain tolerant and satisfied. 

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The time came when missed her menstruation date, her busy life didn't allow her to think. But she was suddenly gaining weight and nausea suggested her about the first pregnancy. All this happened accidentally. The pleasure on her family's faces indicated her the peak of joy. Tom was more conscious about her, nights were more careful now. The second trimester went right but she was facing opposition regarding diet and exercise too. They keep telling her that they want a normal baby. She prayed for the same thing. But this life was complicated for her now beacon use the weight gain she was powerless to even do the previous activity. Taking  multivitamin Am supplements  and everything which would make normal delivery feasible.

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Everything was fine unless realized the period of delivery was getting extensive. consult dated the doctor and they did a scan. The issues regarding labor pain made the doctors frightened too. Esra was not having all this. Now the only choice left was the C section. But her family propelled her to go for a normal delivery at any endeavoring  for more than 5 hours now she was almost on the verge of death doctor  requested her husband sign on the papers but Time was getting out heartbeat beat of baby was getting low.Doctors  immediately did operation but they were late. 
>**The newborn lost the connection from her mom and from this world too.**

 **seventeen  stitches** and doctors took the thing out to whom Esra remained attached throughout the 9 months. He was his companion who gave a good vibe by telling her that mom I am with her. He agreed on each thought and indicated the response through kicks. He connected Tom with Esra each night. He remained the reference of discussion. He glimpsed the world from his mom's eye. 

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He was similar to Esra. When she saw seventeen stitches on her body she was worried that mother-in-law law would target her for this. She begged nurses to bring the newborn to her as she wanted him to lactate. But when she saw him she was surprised that his facial expressions were identical to her. But what about the eyes. He pleaded newborn to this the eyes but he wasn't listening to her. She shouted doctor look he isn't moving, do something. Their expressionless faces surprised her. They were taking him away from her. She ran to halt them but **seventeen  stitches**  were restricting her. Nurses were trying to overpower her. She was getting vicious. She screamed loudly. She was slapping and pushing everyone. She wanted him badly. Thee was last hope. She felt he was saying mom I am going to heaven come with me. I don't want to get detached from you. He was going and Esra was powerless in the same way she was the  from previous 5 years.

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- Behind this attempt;
(My cousin lost her newborn last night. I was so disturb to see her condition, I felt that pain. It was all above my perception, she had scars on the body but her effort, care and love of 9 months ended in a few minutes. Her mental condition isn't good, half dead. So I related her story with the prompt 17 stitches suggested by @dreemsteem 
I am @amberkashif  team from @dreemport )