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# Sometimes I don't feel poetic and creative!  My head feels like its backwards.
Yeah, pretty much what is happening to me right now.  Not sure what to write or how to write it.  Not wanting to have to perfect every single sentence but still genuinely wanting to connected with everyone here on steemit in this moment.  

I've noticed with steemit I hesitate posting or writing anything at all if I know I don't have time to invest because I want it to be good quality; I want it to be able to connect with all of you in a strong way.  Unlike on other social medias were I feel less inhibition and have more of a free flow of thoughts.

# This I feel this has it's positives and negatives to it: 
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### Positives:
*  I've become a better writer because of it 
* I care about the quality of content I produce. 
* It has given me a strong desire to create value in people life with what I create

### Negatives
* Less free flow of thoughts and more inhibitions
* not know how to connect with people on the platform for no particular reason
* not creating as much quantity because of the judgment I have made against short simple posts of mine ( like this one)

#### I would like to find a balance between these things.

# Random Thoughts 
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* Holy crap, steem prices sky rocketed all of a sudden. Didn't expect it to be this soon. 
* Today I rode on a 2 hour steem engine train ride with @danilamarilu and it was waaay more enjoyable than I expected. Had a fun, relaxing, old timey feel to it.  I will be making a post on that later.
* Very Stoked for #steemfest, I cant believe it is so close.  I will be leaving this Sunday to Amsterdam arriving early for exploration of the area before steemfest starts.  Daaam, I need to start getting everything prepared now and get off steemit.
* really excited to learn how to start trading cryptos better and really understanding how the market works. 
* So happy that I connected with steemit and how it got me started on cryptos
* gotta go to bed, gotta think about everything I need to pack, and I gotta get my stuff organized. 
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## Feel free to talk about anything in the comments to respond. All related and random responses to the "topic" are welcome. You all are awesome! Thank you steemit and steemian for sharing yourself.

#### P.S. Wow thank you all for the warm response.  I think I've been holding myself back more than I need to.  I shall start letting my writing and expression of myself flow out more freely from now on.  I also just became overwhelmed with all the thing I need to do   Thank you all for interacting with me ^_^

#### P.P.S.  Oh also I won the [steemit halloween costume contest](https://steemit.com/costumecontest/@amcq/halloween-costume-contest-winners) for most creative costume! So I am super happy about that ^_^
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