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· @battleaxe · (edited)
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Disparity of Despair and trying to Dissipate It
Who said we are supposed to be feeling great all the time?
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(A picture of me sad.....Feel better?  You would if you knew the stories behind it.  It takes more guts to show yourself vulnerable then it does smiling and acting like everything is awesome all the time, that is NOT how life works.)

  Again, who says we are supposed to be sunshine and rainbows all the time in life?
Was it your "friend" on social media with the non-stop perfect pictures of a perfect existence with perfect things?  Was it Big Pharma saying how we all should be bouncing around smiling non stop and any feelings otherwise are abnormal?  Was it on Steemit where you feel your work and presence is just not good enough,  so no "Lambo" for you?  *Perhaps it is someone you care for being able to do the things you want to do but just can't?*

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I call B.S. on the notion that people are supposed to run around pretending that life isn't precarious at best and downright scary at many times.  My "Challenge" to the reader is to leave in the Comments Section that which helps you Dissipate Despair!  I'd rather be real and stay the course for ultimately that which I feel is good.  Just because I am missing someone now does not mean that tomorow I will not be feeling better on every level.  Everything is in flux and that is just fine!
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Tommorow I will not be missing this person so much and tommorow IS ANOTHER DAY.  Having a pity party is okay but living consciously in it is not okay and I will get up in the morning (or at noon) and put on my big girl panties and DEAL!  This time tommorow I want to be by the side of this person and be holding hands and that is how I will dissipate feeling a bit blue from feeling the completely normal human emotion of longing for the one you love to be with you.....Steem On!

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@dynamicgreentk ·
That which dissipates fear aye? For me anymore that's unbridled faith in God and knowing I can rest comfortably in the invisible hands of the universe. I'm not religious at all and not as spiritual as I once was but still ill pray and usually it makes everything alright! I love your articles and the flair they have!
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@grammarnazi ·
Minor Correction
You have a minor misspelling in the following sentence: <blockquote> Just because I am missing someone now does not mean that tommorow I will not be feeling better on every level.</blockquote> It should be <i>tomorrow</i> instead of <i>tommorow</i>.
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oh yay, now let me edit it and sleep better, what a fucking stupid ass thing, like I am not going to reread this....piss off :)
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@battleaxe · (edited)
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@grammarnazi meet @battleaxe,  flagged you for giving unsolicited advice and annoyance and damn do I feel better, Thanks !  I give unsolicited advice but don't bot it and shove it up peoples blogs, no wonder you are a whopping 11, perhaps asking if someone would like their post dissected, oh yeah but you're a bot so who cares :P
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Hey @grammarnazi ..pissof modhafocka or ill flag you like there is no tommorrrow.
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@battleaxe ·
I'm pretty convinced the maker of that lives in a basement somewhere surrounded by posters of sadistic historical figures....lol,  *I SHALL MAKE A BOT! IT WILL MAKE SURE YOU DO NOT PUT A DASH IN THE WRONG SPOT>>>bwahahahhahahhahah*    If I ever made a bot it would be called  "FreedomBot" it would be awesome and just randomly give out money to people who need it.
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@hazem91 ·
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You know what helps? Yoga!
Trust me I tried it **once** 😅

But the best trick ever is to have frieds that listen to you, tell you you are right and make you feel better. Then maybe tell you where you could do better.

To have that kind of friends I think you should also be one, maybe.
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@battleaxe ·
a robot asshole is not my friend, the rest on here , yourself included, are friends
take the 'batteries' out of da bot and kick to the recycling heap , lol  :)
I don't like unsolicited advice , it smacks of one of my biggest pet peeves which is someone being patronizing and that and myself do not mix to say the least
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@lanmower ·
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Much love @battleaxe and a big dirty hippy hug.

It's ok to not be ok was just what I had to hear today.

Thank you.
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@malos10 · (edited)
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It's okay to feel bad sometimes, we're human and we have feelings!

But as you said *Tomorrow is another day*  and the sun will always rise after it rains;) Let those emotions flow to relieve you, feel them, express them and let them pass. Bad times wont be forever.

What helps me to dissipate the despair:

**Leave the place where I am** the fact of changing the scenario also makes you distract and stop having that kind of thoughts.

in that order, what I prefer to do is go to a park and do some parkour (I love parkour) Parkour increases my endorphins and makes me feel good
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@mountainjewel · (edited)
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dissipate despair... good question... i always like this one to get me some perspective.. that it's all gonna change (like you say), rumi is the best i got!

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice.
meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.

Be grateful for whatever comes.
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

— Jellaludin Rumi

lately ive been feeling a huge shift which includes depressed feelings, stuckness, sluggishness, etc... i started listening to a 17 min affirmation video on youtube ... and it's really boosting my mood and helping me think about things in different ways.


https://youtu.be/NkROmtfEwm8
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we are people behind our blogs and logs and scrambles to make a buck in whatever guise it comes in.....SIncerest of thanks for an EXCELLENT comment, thank you
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@mountainjewel ·
<3 <3 for sure! it's so much easier for me to share the happy things, and i feel hesitant to share the darker parts. it's a crazy thing we humans have set ourselves up for... to hide our hard times. that doesn't make sense, except that we know that people can be judgmental assholes so i guess we hide ourselves from that judgment? or for me it's also that it's not easy to feel the down emotions and it can be painful, so why share that? also, i don't want to get "pegged" as "that"... which is crazy to type, but that's real, too. personally i love connecting REAL TALK... it's so *refreshing*! thanks for being real.
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@ninahaskin ·
Music is my "therapist" @battleaxe -- available 24/7, no appointment necessary, no prior authorization, no copayments. Turn it up loud, sing along and melt away any despair! 🎶
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@robertandrew ·
Thanks @battleaxe for being true to heart about the Reality of Life.

It sure ain't a bed of roses all the time. That's fer sure

I try to deal with negative thoughts and ones that get stuck in my Mind but sometimes it can be overwhelming. I then try to meditate but that does not always work.

Sometimes it just takes Time and sometimes we have no control over how long that Time will be.

It does suck  when that bad Thought just follows you around  relentlessly  wherever you go
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@battleaxe ·
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yeah, sometimes all you can do is sail through it and let it pass and sometimes it just doesn't...... and that's okay too, we can't control every aspect of our own psyches and I call bullshit on anyone who says otherwise on that ;)
thanks for the thoughtful comment
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@samest ·
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Hmmm, battleaxe I'm battling with my heart with this expressing above.

**You Know**?

>sometimes  when i say  im okay, i want somebody to look straight into my eyes and say i know you are not okay but everything is fine.

@battleaxe battlesword say lets be courageous and in everything we conquer.

I love this piece of your you axe me again.
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@shadowspub ·
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nice work @battleaxe ... may all our tommorrows be great LOL
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@battleaxe ·
Amen to that
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@ssimkins9 ·
Big time. You should feel those feelings. I won't even call them negative emotions because that is a value judgment and has no place here. They might be harder, more difficult, or "slower," but they are just as good because they are part of you.

I've been trying to avoid dishonest and flippant responses when people ask how I am doing. People don't know what to do. Work people are the worst. 

>Hey Sam, how are you?

>I've been better. You?

>Good, good. Yup, another day.

Like, did you even hear me?
Or when I get real:

>How you doing?

>Kinda shitty. Been having a rough time these past few weeks. Thanks for asking. How are you?

>Umm, uh. Well, yeah, at least it is Spring. Living the dream, right?

Okay then? People are expected canned answers because authenticity is foreign for most. Keep digging deeper into who you are!

Cheers,
Sam
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@battleaxe ·
Awesome comment!  Yes, everything is canned these days including feigned authenticity, thank you for visiting my blog
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@stairway2heaven ·
Sometimes we focus so much on pretending something or someone, to lie to ourselves and believe that we will be fine like that, but there is no better attribute and acceptance than accepting oneself and others for what they are, it sounds easier to say than doing it , but the first one is always important and that goal is fixed, nice post
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@battleaxe ·
thank you for the thoughtful comment and visiting my blog... A point comes in life to just cut out that which does not accept and keeps trying to change you, it is hard to accept ourselves and it sucks when others can not accept us for who we are
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@stairway2heaven ·
But each one of us has a different vision or projection of the other, there are people who respect it and others do not, but everything is that you have that change for you ... because it is what will give the necessary value to your life, what you want to do as you want to do without expecting attributes from others, luck with it I hope to see you helped a little bit, I love your gifs <3
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@teamsteem · (edited)
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Words are failing us in those moments. I wish you feel better today

For some reason reading your post reminded me of this other post. It's not really related to your post. I guess it's related in the sense that those two posts are deep and particularly beautiful.

Take care Axey! 

http://web.archive.org/web/20140609135016/http://www.globalone.tv/profiles/blogs/osho-consciousness-is-bliss
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Just know this: 
# You are OK even when things are not "All Right" 🤗
Best Wishes Always, Axey
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