A big thank you to @surpassinggoogle for this opportunity to write down our emotions,after seeing a lot of @teardrops @tears tags on my feed I checked it out and found out smart media challenge and @surpassinggoogle were behind it,so I decided to pour out my tears!!
 
Tears are a symbol of emotions, they could be happy tears or sad tears and its an absolute normally for anyone to cry.

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[Source](https://www.instagram.com/p/Bd9xDR1Buom/)

I don't think I have ever known real pain as much as I did when we (i and my siblings) lost our dog 'Diego', he was a puppy about 3 or 4months old of the Alsatian breed,his colours was a mixture of black and tan brown.

My brother picked his name cause of the way he ran with his little feet's,he would follow you every were and try to keep up lol,he was the cutest baby dog ever😭😭,he loved head rubs and tender belly scratches, his stomach will always bulge out after his milk😃funny site like a preggy baby😥.

We only just started creating memories then when I came back from school for the weekend and found him sick,he was unusually quiet, apparently the vet had given him an overdose of medicine, popsi only wanted to protect Diego from any imminent health dangers that he could be facing from being in a new environment, that's why the vet was asked to give him vaccine, only for the vet to overdose him😒😒(he is lucky I didn't get my hands on him).

That day is still the worst day in my love life😭😭,he wouldn't eat,nor drink,we all tried to do our best to make him comfortable, the vet doctor promised to be by our place in the morning,that was the longest night ever,i woke up at night because I heard him breathing raggedly, I when to his cot and he looked weak,he looked sad😭😭,he eyes seem to apologize for his death to come,I tried rubbing his back gently to give him comfort but to no avail,he died shortly after, he drew his last breath and let it go like a whisper. I stood there refusing to believe the obvious, I went to my room and forced myself to sleep with the thought that I would wake up to see him responding to treatments *how stupid I was*😒😥he was dead! Dead!! He was never coming back again😭😭

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[Source](https://www.instagram.com/p/Bd-ARpuHSZ-/)

Mt younger sister broke into tears immediately, my eye welled up with tears,we were inconsolable,we looked at his pictures for months unending reliving the memories left behind, tragedy like this has never happened to us before, we never owned a dog,we just wanted to give it a try and oh what wonderful memories were created all to be cut shorter than expected!! I felt guilt, I blamed myself, why wasn't I home earlier, there might have been a chance,nobody got to experience his death like I did,after all he died in my presence.

Its been over three years and we still haven't gotten another dog, the experience still hangs around our hearts, we still talk about him sometimes but he will always live in our hears,mabe I should get a dog so all the love stored over time can be showered on him,maybe only then can I be fully healed.

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I couldn't get an original picture of him because all my files got wiped(learnt a bitter lesson of not backing up my files) but those pictures would have been for you,because I have his right here with me,were it has always been and will always be.

Thanks for Reading!!
Thanks @surpassinggoggle for giving us a platform to pour out our hearts full of tears