Thinking Through Mud by coinjoe

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hive-126152 · @coinjoe · Apr 23

$10.64

Thinking Through Mud

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Initially this post as going to be a specific reflection. But, like many of my thoughts these days, focus was lost, thoughts lost and was essentially left with nothing but scrambled bits of thoughts in my head. Just as I was about to close the lid of this laptop, the thought popped into my head that I should just reflect on lost reflections.

For me it is overly frustrating to deal with brain fog. At least that is what the neurologist calls it. It is so weird and the best way I can describe it sometimes is "thinking through mud".

Sometimes a memory or answer seems to be right there, but you just can't seem to grab hold of it. You can see a outline of it, you can even catch a glimpse of clarity maybe, but the full picture is always missing.

When you attempt to reach for it, the feeling is like being stuck in the mud. You know, that feeling when your feet are about knee deep in the muck and you can't pull them free to take the next step. Thus, my anaology of "thinking through the mud".

There was a time when my mind was sharp. By no means was I some genius or anything, but could hold my own in a conversation, argue intelligently my points, and make split second decisions.

Like many things with mental and physcial limitations, it is a challenge that must be overcome. Although I have not figured out completely how to overcome this one yet, I am pushing the rock up the hill, stepping through the mud, one slogging step at a time.

The biggest thing is that I no longer get down on myself or let feelings about it impact how I behave moving forward when it effects me. However, I do realize though that there is the luxury because I am retired now and not much is dependant on my quick decision making or memory recall.

One thing I have learned is that I must keep challenging my mind, testing the lmits. Read, write, do puzzles, converse and other things that make the grey matter work.

Letting the brain rot along with the rest of my body is not an option.

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Thanks for reading,
Joe

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@bozz · Apr 23

$0.02

I try to use Google Keep to track my post ideas, but even then I might write a couple words and then come back to it and have no clue what I was thinking at the time.  I might have to start using HackMD so I can at least get a couple sentences down to remind myself of where I was going!

👍 coinjoe

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@coinjoe · Apr 23

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Those are some good ideas. I was just starting posts in PeakD drafts and coming back to them but again like you couldn’t recall where I was going with the post. I may start trying to do outlines at the time and it may help with recall.

👍 bozz

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@bozz · Apr 23

Outlines are very powerful when done right.

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@kamustakymmy · Apr 27

I can relate to you. It's quite an imagery you made, too. I have an illness, and it has mostly affected my thinking. I feel exactly as if I'm thinking through mud. But like what you do, I still continue to read, write, and converse. I agree, brain rot is not an option. Thank you for this read.

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@riverflows · Apr 23

$0.02

I'm feeling it at 53, that I don't think as sharply as I used to. Maybe it's partly that I'm not required to as I am not working. Maybe it's menopause. I know for you PTSD would have used a lot of energy to protect your brain. It does worry me. I definitely pride myself on my intellectual self and I don't want to get Alzheimer's!

👍 coinjoe, bpcvoter4

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@coinjoe · Apr 24

The big A and dementia worry me at times too. However the neurologist assured me I show no signs of it on CT scans. It is probably a little of all of what you mentioned for me as well.

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@ssg-community · Apr 23

You received an upvote of 17% from Precious the Silver Mermaid!

Please remember to contribute great content to the #SilverGoldStackers tag to create another Precious Gem.

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@coinjoe · Apr 23

$0.66

Thank you

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@tarazkp · Apr 23

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I had issues with my thyroid that caused brain-fog, and once I got medication, a few months and I was normal again. Then of course, the stroke happened and well, *new normal.*

I forget a lot of the things I was going to write, even if it is two minutes later. I try to take notes, or a title when I can, and try to add some bullet points of why the topic and some ideas. 

Still, so much falls through the gaps. 

But not all!

👍 coinjoe

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@coinjoe · Apr 24

You’re doing fantastic work here with the quality you put out. Don’t tell yourself otherwise. No doubt it is a struggle but you make it look so easy.

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@thebighigg · Apr 23

I know the feeling... I'm not as sharp as I used to be and I'm definitely no longer the sharpest tool in the shed. Time is rough on the human brain, maybe that's because for so long the average lifespan of humans was 35 or less back before modern medicine. Glad to see you posting regularly again, I'm trying to do the same. But today I have nothing planned and nothing coming to mind. Another Wednesday!

How have you been feeling?

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