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I am quite famished already, I told mother to cook me some tilapia with supposedly fresh Tamarind fruits because I wanted to squeeze the cooked Tamarind juices unto some rice and enjoy eating it, it is my current craving for today.

I haven't eaten anything substantially yet because my last meal was around twenty hours ago and a few hours after my dialysis I only had some sweet bread, so not much nutrition there except for some calories which is easily burned even if I am just laying on my bed.

Also I had watched about mukbang videos and it just makes my mouth water even though I could not even eat about the 1/16th of the amount that they are devouring ever so easily like sucking some noodles, it just fascinates me and of course I believe that they would just prepare for it, making themselves to get hungry and then exercising after. 

Some of them are also eating very, very spicy foods, whole onions like it was an apple and pieces of garlic along with slabs of seafoods, tender pork belly, octopus, squids, gians lobsters, crabs, meat dishes, Korean foods and loads of other side dishes and other Chinese foods.

The ASMR sound is really entertaining as well. I would like to do some Mukbang but nah, for one thing I will not be able to and it is not good also for my current health situation, it will definitely poison me plus having to suffer an appetiteloss will just make it a torturous activity, just imagine eating even delicious foods but you do not have the appetite for it, so it can never happen.

But it inspires me to eat well than just skipping and skipping my meals which is affecting my weight and health. I am just eating if I am hungry now, I try not to eat often because it will just be an expensive affair as I have to use my phosphate binder everytime I would eat.

It works for me to eat less frequently, I can never use the extra energy anyway because of my bed bound disposition. Well for me if only I can forgo eating I will because I now view it in other way other than giving me nutrition, it also a cause for giving my body toxins and discomfort and because of fluid build-up. I just wished also that my dialysis is frequent but it is just time-consuming, disruptive, and expensive as well.