 图源：Pixabay 我到了18、19岁时，身边和我认识快10年的朋友就会说：“你好像变了啊……” 当然这句话是褒义。我深知自己的缺点，比如以前的我过度严谨、收敛、敏感。我对自己是非常无敌苛刻，不允许自己做很多事情，对自己学业的要求也很高。总是给自己超出自己能力的要求和目标。 但是也是因为这样苛刻的性格，很多人觉得我可靠，认真，又有责任心。但是我偶尔也会犯错，那时候就会觉得超敏感，觉得自己辜负了别人。 怎么说，就是强把别人对我的期望当成我需要完成的事情。如果自己做不好，就觉得自己对不起别人。问题就在，我为什么会对不起别人？而不是觉得对不起自己？ 我总是为了别人而活啊…… 学业的要求很高，因为我觉得这是我必须做的，为了讨好父母。当然我也认同一半的时候我是为了自己。后来18岁后，我才发现学习这件事情是为了自己的时候，它如此美好、快乐，哪怕学习过程很辛苦。 当我对自己不那么苛刻，那是因为我发现其实我不必背负别人的期望，我应该多关注自己内心。什么才是我真正想要的。 这也算是我找回自己个人意识、主见的一小步吧。再也不需要小心翼翼地讨好他人，为了别人过度着想。开始爱自己，学会聆听自己的心声，开始学会拒绝别人，不去过度放大别人的感受。
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我以前也是这样，而且我特别希望得到我妈妈肯定
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