It's a very special mother's day in my life. It's mother's day as everyone would imagine what's going on now, with all the crazy things happened in the world. Let me take you down to my memory lane.

I spent the first 17 years of my life with my mom. None of the year I'm away from my mom, because I had to since I'm staying in my parent's house. As you know, kids growing up to teenage, why does it call teenage? That's because they're at the teens, thirteen fourteen fifteen sixteen and seventeen. Before we realized, kids at eighteen is not teen anymore, they call themselves young adults. My eighteen is the first year I ghosted my own family, instead celebrating the special mother's day at the "then" girlfriend's house with her mother.

Year after year, some of the year I forgotten the special day, when siblings showed up, only I realized I forgotten to "ghost". But hey, free splurge dinner it means. Might as well just play along. And things got a little twist, I lost my job in 2004, I literally need a hide out back in my parent's house. I still remember my Nokia 8250 buzzing for morning wake up alarm clock until the damn phone smash on the floor, whilst I'm still asleep. By the time I woke up, it was already evening. Mom came and call me for dinner.

After I officially moved to Kuala Lumpur, things has literally changed, especially after I have my own female tiger. You know, girls are always more sentiment in this kind of special celebration. She's the one who keep on reminding me whose birthday around the corner, getting a gift for whom or so. And then I become a father myself, now I need to be very careful in arranging these type of special event too, and I started to realized how much I took my own parent's for granted. We didn't go back to my home town as often, but usually if we visit for mother's day, then we will skip father's day.

You see, it's not like I don't want to see my parents. Transportation and travel expenses isn't really cheap. And now, with the C19 affect, getting out of state needed special approval from the government and needed a sound reason to travel. Social visiting is excluded. It really makes me feel sad about the current situation. So many reflection in my mind, things that I took for granted.

We will be having a small video call later together with the family. We're just grateful to still have ways of communication and seeing each other online now. Imagine, if all these being taken away, it's still not to the worst because we know our old man still around. What if one day, when they're not here anymore? Happy mother's day to all, with or without our mother physically around. Let us celebrate and remember the good things our mother had done to us.

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