悲傷，與悲傷的深淵 by deanliu

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hive-105017 · @deanliu · May 8 '20 (edited)

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悲傷，與悲傷的深淵

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<sub>*pixabay*</sub>

身邊朋友發生一些事，不太算是很熟，但可說是長輩型朋友，人非常好，家庭看起來也很正常與幸福，至少，從外人看起來是這樣的。

我不想在這公開網上說太清楚什麼事情。只大略交待，是什麼悲傷事件。

總之，是他孩子，不久前，自我選擇失去了生命，而這是一個痛苦的過程，這一過程，又讓這位父親，事後完全可以深深愧疚於自己當時的作為，總是有一萬種方式想東想西，想那what-ifs。逝者已矣，沒必要去對於原因過度推論。

但身為父母，總可以無限責怪自己。就算不是主要原因，沒有保護好孩子，就可以怪罪自己一輩子...

我身為父親，我可以想像那種痛楚，但我不敢想像我是否能夠走出來...

更別說，家庭裡，不是只有亡者與父，還有母，還有其他兄弟姊妹以及親人... 

大家，該怎麼一起度過這個痛苦的深淵？而不彼此責怪，而不痛苦加乘，而不失去愛人的能力 ...

我光是用想的就很難受了，何況是當事人... 

![image.png](https://images.hive.blog/DQmbRREjR36p53gzuTnibQuwNcNDTdoBn6k3dLdn1NZUdbH/image.png)
<sub>*pixabay*</sub>

這事件我大概一年前就知道了。

今天我沒有想到，又聽說了更悲傷的第二個壞消息。

孩子的母親，受不了思念或是罪己，也走上了同樣的道路。

悲傷的深淵，沒有止境。

我已經不知道該怎麼面對這樣人間的悲劇了。好人，為什麼，要遭受這樣的噩運？


![image.png](https://images.hive.blog/DQmNj2voF6caKsBB5iXB5Z7CFvf4b2vFvNkTVhsfJNUivUF/image.png)
<sub>*pixabay*</sub>

我只能說，大家要珍惜身邊的一切，家人之間，要保持緊密的溝通與關懷。

每一天都可能是我們之間最後的一天，不要因為太多其他的羈絆，造就此生無法彌補的遺憾。

在這母親節的前夕，祝福各位能夠永遠跟所愛的人在一起。

媽，等我週日打電話回去啊~~~~~

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@aaronli · May 8 '20

唉，今天我碰巧也聽到一樣的消息....一位前輩的兒子走了...

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@jychbetter · May 8 '20

家人之间的沟通不顺畅，或者不理解，造成了两个悲剧，哎。。。。。。

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@mrspointm · May 9 '20

看到这些文字都感觉很难过 无法想象那种痛苦 把每天都当做生命中的最后一天 去好好珍惜身边人 好好对自己

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@pizzapai · May 10 '20

是很悲哀啊……每每日子过不下去的时候，真的... 感觉到极度的绝望...我真的也想终止这样的痛苦... 但最后自救的方法就是想象... 将给家人带来无尽的痛、或许会毁了家人的一生平静.....
想着想着..... 觉得我不能那么自私……我一个人的无能，却伤害了爱我的家人尤其可怜的老父母......
我只好忍了下来....... 不断跟自己说... 总会过去... 没什么大不了的……
所以..... 我又回来了……来这里努力.....算是自救的一个管道....
不好意思..... 没有吓到你吧？🙏🏻 我没事。放心～

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@pizzapai · May 10 '20

对了... 谢谢你把这些写出来....
虽然读着很心痛……但或许救了很多很多面临困难的人.....

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@sherbano · May 8 '20

请说说它们大狗的故事..........

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@susanli3769 · May 9 '20

好悲哀，很难想象他如何去承受？还是珍惜身边人吧。

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