https://i.imgur.com/F605mIQ.jpg I was working on a song for this week's Open Mic while my friend sat in the other room. She was hanging out, not really paying attention to what I was doing. I noticed myself feeling self-conscious as I plucked and sang through the chords, working out the tune. I wasn't nervous about being heard - after so many years, I'm mostly past that. I felt awkward in case I was bugging my friend, since I'm crashing on her couch for a week until my new apartment opens up. A guy needs to practice, but I try to be as non-annoying as possible whenever I'm crashing at somebody's place. <h3>Epiphany</h3> I noticed my focus shifting. While focusing on my feelings of anxiousness, my song performance went onto autopilot. I consciously dragged the focus back to my own singing, listening to myself to get more in tune. I could hear my voice, the notes against the chords, and felt myself shifting into a better, more tuneful vocal delivery. Then - the anxiety ebbed back into my brain, I began to feel annoying again (for no real reason, mind - I know it's cool to practice for 30 minutes) - and the focus shifted <b>away</b> from the performance again. I could feel that whenever the self consciousness kicked in, my focus shifted away from where it needed to be. And in that moment, I realized the true curse of anxiety as a musician - you can't hear yourself. Every anxious thought distracts from the ability to disappear into the music and PLAY. <h3>How to Be Less Self Conscious</h3> Of course it's not easy to just "stop feeling nervous." But, life isn't fair, and it's good to recognize this kind of stuff. I now can see how important it is to find my inner confidence, bravado, even a bit of cockiness so that I can stay within myself and play at my best level. I suspect other musicians may experience something similar. What do you think? Does self consciousness interfere with your ability to play, and if so, how you do work through that? Let's talk about it in the comments - I'd love to hear your thoughts. <center>https://i.imgur.com/hgkeIwR.jpg?3</center>
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As a Bboy this has been a perpetual problem. But well, I try not to see it as a problem. It just what it is. Every time I battle, I feel the nerves coming in. But I crush through it and dish out my best sets the best way I can anyway. It's a cliche, but don't think, and feel the music. Music is the main ingredient and when you feel that shit, nothing and no one can take that away from you.
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"And in that moment, I realized the true curse of anxiety as a musician - you can't hear yourself. Every anxious thought distracts from the ability to disappear into the music and PLAY." Very true. For example, I can practice, but I can't <i>create</i> when someone is listening. Their presence alone makes it difficult for me to relax. And I'm not, as you say, within myself, but rather on the outside, listening to myself nervously without really partaking in what I am doing. Not sure if that's ever gonna change. That's why privacy is crucial for me to be able to work.
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Hell Yea! This must be really common. I even come across it when I'm shooting video for my vlog. Anyway, I read a rad book on this topic. The Inner Game Of Music. One of the tools I remember that helped me a lot, was to visualize myself as one of my music heroes and sing like I am inside their body. So, If I jamming some blues, I imagine I'm Louis Armstrong fuckin rocking out in some bar in New Orleans. Get all gritty and bad ass. Cool post again. Nice work.
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Self consciousness is definitely something I struggle with, especially with music. I have that same worry that I might be annoying people when I'm playing guitar and trying to sing, this makes me not want to practice until I'm completely alone. Then the lack of practice causes me to become more self conscious, and on, and on, in a vicious cycle of ineptitude and crippling shyness. That might be a little bit of an over exaggeration but that doesn't make it any less true. So far, the only way I can see to get over it is to continue practicing, recording, and listening to myself until I'm comfortable enough in my ability to finally be able to perform in front of people. Or maybe meth, I hear meth is good for building confidence, haha.
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Dude, good to see you! I was worried you dropped off of the steem train for a minute there. The cycle you described is something a lot of people experience I think. Not practicing enough due to nervousness, then being nervous because you haven't practiced... blech, it sucks. *"So far, the only way I can see to get over it is to continue practicing, recording, and listening to myself until I'm comfortable enough in my ability to finally be able to perform in front of people."* This is so it. For me, the only way to get past nervousness is to just... do, over and over. And hopefully not to use meth, haha, maybe just stick to a bit of beer or weed to get the edge off :-)
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Steem won't get rid of me that easy, haha. I just find it takes me about a week to get back into the swing of things after visiting my friends for a few days. Haha, no amount of beer or weed can help me when it comes to playing music for people. Large quantities of whiskey might help but my stomach isn't able for that kind of abuse anymore, haha.
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