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My year 2019 started good and ended great. I went exploring, both the internal and external worlds, and I have discovered a lot of things about myself. I would consider 2019 as a borderline between the silly me and the serious me. A lot of things have learned that I will for sure use these lessons to have a better year ahead.

 
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## Going Out For Fun

I started my year with me going out more often and spending time with myself. I reconnected with old friends as well and met new ones. My 2018 was mostly spent inside my room ~~crying~~ so stepping out and feeling the sun for the first time in months felt good lol. Also, I learned to control my sleep schedule, that means, I started waking up early again. 

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## Gave My Fucks To Those Who Deserve It

Exploring myself included exploring different topics and genres in my art-making, both in photography and painting. I started being more honest with myself and respecting what my heart really desires. That includes the nudity in my work that received criticisms, both on my works and my morality. 


I would say, criticisms are good and must be acknowledged at some point so you'll improve. But some people will just criticize you for the sake of it. Only cos they want to talk about you and to try and bring you down lol. They always exist. I have learned who to give my attention to, and who to ignore. 


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## Freelancing

I tried freelancing in photography and in design. I don't actually market myself as *Heeeyy I am a freelance photographer and shit, hire me* but I just get offers and accept them. I started photographing stuff outside and it was fun, considering someone trusted your work and you'll get paid for it. Even though it was fun, I still never thought of it being a regular thing that I'll do. But it's good to explore different fields. :D

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## I Started Creating Content Regularly

In the middle of the year, I started to focus more on creating content than curating for different Steem projects. *Because creating is what I should be doing in the first place*. Creating is fun and allowed me to improve on some skills. Also made me create works for my portfolio. So, it's a win-win.


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## Drink Water Regularly
No bitch, I'm not going back to that scary day where I peed blood and vomit and experience pain and shit. No no. I promised myself to take care of my kidney after that incident. So yep, less softdrinks and more water. Also, you should do that as well. Peeing with pain is just... painful lol.


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## Getting Seriouuuuuuusssss
As I've said earlier, 2019 was like the border of being silly and serious. I was talking about my life lol. The silly part was just doing random things, not having a clear goal, just pure exploring. Now that I'm getting serious, I have clear goals of what I really want in life and gonna start 2020 with achieving those. 

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## Started Believing In Myself Again
Because you know, the law of attraction. :p

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## That 4 Is The Limit In An Hour
No context.

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## Jag älskar dig 
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## White Thing From The Eggs
I've always wondered why the eggs crack while boiling it, making the water have some egg white swimming around it, wasting food. And it's cos I put the eggs during the boiling point of water instead of putting the eggs in the water first before boiling it. XD What a noob.

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The list will go on forever but these are just some of the great things I've learned. Or the memorable ones. Happy new year and let's all hope we all have a wonderful 2020. I mean, believe that it will be great. Ha. :p



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