I've been having some hard times right now with making videos and not only that editing them. My life has been very hard and i've decided to tell everyone that ether watches my videos or just looks at this blog (lol). I know i'm new but i'm just gonna tell everyone what is going on in my life so here it is!

I'm a 18 year old dude that has Asperger. I'm actually very very good at speaking english and other shit but spelling is sometimes hard for me. Like with their and there etc. I wanted to finish high school and then get a job and hopefully move to NH (New Hampshire). The reason for this is because I live in CT (Connecticut). You can go around and see memes about CT being rich but really we're not... however back then we where. We used to have an airplane show where I live and if you go and watch my abandon building on DTube that was the building that did all of that. So how did it all get fucked up? Well the thing is we've got a shitty governor. His name Malloy. Ever since our old gov got arrested (not gonna go into detail about what he did) we've been in a big fucked up spot. For awhile everything was fine until he fucked it all up for CT. Places started closing fast because taxes are too fuckin high here. By 2020 we will get tolls but it won't fix the problem sadly. He's spending it on stupid shit. I read an article in the news paper and our taxes didn't go to to the roads, or anything like that. It went to a fuckin dog show. OUR TAXES WENT TO A FUCKING DOG SHOW!?!? Truly it's fucked up here. Let me be clear CT is the richest state but you don't hear the richest or wealthiest people. We have no middle class in CT anymore sadly. We have more people leaving CT then coming into CT! Now i'm gonna tell you the tax here. If you get a chocolate bar and a energy drink say monster the tax will be $1. That's how high our taxes are here! That's just for sales tax. In NH however doesn't do that. The only richest spots you will see are the edges of CT. Not the middle don't go to Willimantic don't go to Moosup, don't go to Plainfield just go to the edges that's where the rich people are but no middle class.


Now I want to talk about my life. Not just the state now. My life is fucked. Like not just regular fucked i'm talking about big fucked with two girls with long strap on's. Anyway's with my Asperger I was suppose to be on DDS or whatever it's called. Basically this was suppose to help me and teach me how to live life or whatever. I was suppose to have this once I was diagnose with what I have. My mother never put me on it. She think's I don't need the help when really I do. When I was growing up I have an uncle but I felt i don't know how to say it but to me it's used. I felt like getting stuff from him was to hide me from the messed up world. Once I got older and older I saw what he was trying to do. He was trying to hide me from the world like I said. I was upset, angry, many feelings to be honest but more disappointed... I'm still angry about it. I treated him like trash ever since and I don't want his help with anything he's lazy giving shit to hide me from this world. I got soda, candy, games, consoles, anything I wanted but I didn't want that! I wanted to learn how to do shit not sugar coat it and hide me from the world. My mother however is the worst. She uses people it may not seem that way but she does. Not only that she's in her 40's and wants a boyfriend because my dad was abusive to me. I don't care what she does with her stupid life but what pist me off is when we where shoveling and she text her boyfriend telling him to come and pick her up (she needed to get ice) he never answered her so what she did was lie to him and told him that she needed a ride to get home from work but some other guy picked her up. Fuckin pathetic to be honest. I told her off when she did that and she wasn't pleased about it. Guess she doesn't like the truth apparently. At night times I couldn't sleep because of screaming down stairs and shit from family arguing about my brothers homework because he wouldn't do it not only that once he finished it he would stay up till 1 or 2 screaming at a game my mother and uncle wouldn't shut him the fuck up! So I stayed up till that time because I couldn't sleep with that shit. I talked to my girlfriend at night because she lives in the Philippines. I'm worried about her ever day of my life because of drug war there. I'm afraid bad things are gonna happen to her. I don't want to think about. I couldn't stand her suffering at all. She doesn't have any long selves and is sometimes cold. I plan on buying her a hoodie to keep her warm. Anyway's enough about her. I don't want a job until i graduate problem is this is CT it's not easy getting a job that pays well sadly. My uncle put me in subway and I was in school learning french my grade was going down in that class badly. I had a 97 and it went down to a 87 or 85. I quit my job at subway and my mother told me I should of quit school instead of my job. Fuckin. Bitch. After awhile I was kicked out and went to live with my friends. I'm alright but my mom has to take care of my braces and important shit that she can't escape. She just wants to get the shit done and never see me again. I'm glad. I don't want to see that fuckin whore bitch again. She also spends money on things she doesn't need. Cars is the #1 thing she buy's. She has 7 or 6 cars!?!? WHO THE FUCK NEEDS THAT MANY CARS!?!?!? LIKE SERIOUSLY!?!? One or two cars okay with me but 7 or 6!?!? ARE YOU FUCKIN KIDDING ME?!?!? It's disgusting to me. Very disgusting that her money is going to stuff that she doesn't need. Anyway's after all this it's getting better and worse. My grade in French went up to 93. I'm happy about that thank god. My braces are fucked now one of my braces are broken. Not only that I found out about something about my uncle that I can't say. Let's just say he can go to jail for 20 years or more and my mom can go to jail for 14 or 20 or more years. I'm not gonna say anything since this will effect me and not only that my brother. My life is full of stress and pain and i'm depressed almost ever day with all of this shit in my life. It's hard to make videos and giving updates on me as well. I'm sorry I let people down and shit I know i'm not big but still to my friends i'm very sorry i'm not perfect and shit but I won't give up hope even though there's no such thing it's only a illusion to me. Thank you if you made it this far and read all of this. I know it's long and shit but I thank you for reading it it means the world to me! Again i'm sorry... Thank you and I hope you have a wonderful day! ~Jarthromann