 [Image](https://cdn.pixabay.com/photo/2016/01/19/17/50/girl-1149933_960_720.jpg) I tried to hide these emotions to put up a brave front Yet it surfaced again to counter and confront Why are my emotions so difficult to suppress and confine? Drowned in a sea of regret, As I sit and fret, my heart aches I have had too many salted words My skin is scarred from their blades Sharp are the edges that cut through my heart With no regrets of their actions As I gazed upon the horrid look upon their face while they Turn to push me away, eats the very inside of my soul Everything that I have to give, they took Deep choking has left my heart shaken They give me laughter choked back with tears They show me a glimpse of love Only to reveal what will never be This feelings is indescribably painful For they have shattered my wishes. Bone breaking emotions rips through my body The hurt is unbearable, why do they have to be so cruel? Thinking without a sound, as i welcome the pains They made me cry but turned around and laughed at my tears, If only they knew how painful it is to cry a tear. My mind is filled with constant array yard, disheveled in loud display I cannot continue to defend my right to live this way. Suddenly I laughed, when I should be shedding more tears But the truth is this; I'm fed-up with fears After a moment of fatal grief, My heart now feels total relief. A big ya-hoo, a loud hoo-ray.
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|---|---|
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The words resonate deep within my soul, I can still feel the message ringing in my head. Thank God you saw that truth and you refused to allow sadness and pain trap you.
| author | ehiboss |
|---|---|
| permlink | re-jblsignature-enigma-of-my-emotions-20180725t030059718z |
| category | poetry |
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You are right, I won't allow the past dictate my future anymore, maybe a good cry was all I needed all along. thank you so much for visiting my blog,.
| author | jblsignature |
|---|---|
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