Hello Steemians,

In the previous installment of the case for Bitcoin/life synchronicity we left off on October 13th 2013 having just received the keys to mine and Wendy's new house. If you're new to the series I would encourage you to catch up using the links below, to better understand the possible connection between Bitcoin and the events in my life, or quite possibly your own.

[Part 1](https://steemit.com/life/@joeohs/my-life-on-a-bitcoin-chart)
[Part 2](https://steemit.com/life/@joeohs/my-life-on-a-bitcoin-chart-pt-2)
[Part 3](https://steemit.com/life/@joeohs/my-life-on-a-bitcoin-chart-pt-3)

I want to begin by explaining a change in the chart shown below. I opted to switch to 3 day candles for this particular chart, simply because there is so much going on between 2014 and 2016, I feel as though it would be best to try and compress the details as much as possible. With that I should also note that this is the section of Bitcoins lifetime that showcases the longest bear market of its history, partly due to the Mt. Gox bankruptcy fiasco in February 2014, and I felt it important to compress the chart, giving you all a view of "the cup and handle" of emotion in those years.

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*[Image source](https://1drv.ms/u/s!AmuIi9PNWb07iwjFPVtug7xXubhC)*

We begin with life in the new house. Spending quality time getting settled in, celebrating both our birthdays and the holidays in it. The new year begins and Mt. Gox collapses. Having moved into the new house without a job and the commercial drivers license I had intended to earn back  in 2013, it was vital that I begin a new job search to help with the increased financial demands. This led me to Papa Johns becoming a pizza delivery driver, but it didn't last long as a quarrel between me and another co-worker was sparked, so I quit. Shortly after that I decided to give Uber a try and this proved to be financially rewarding, but only for a short time.

Here is where I want to propose a possible link between the Bitcoin chart, the synchronicity between it and the emotional resistance/support wave effect, and something I mentioned in [Part 3](https://steemit.com/life/@joeohs/my-life-on-a-bitcoin-chart-pt-3); Psychosocial construct. It has to do with Erik Erikson theory of [Psychosocial development](https://www.simplypsychology.org/Erik-Erikson.html).  It's best described like this:
> During each stage, the person experiences a psychosocial crisis which could have a positive or negative outcome for personality development. For Erikson (1963), these crises are of a psychosocial nature because they involve psychological needs of the individual (i.e. psycho) conflicting with the needs of society (i.e. social).

I happen to believe that there is a link between the 3 because I can see the struggle within my own Psychosocial development and keeping balance between my emotional resistances and supports. The best example is set between obtaining my job with Papa Johns and where I begin attending church. As the candles dip further toward the center between the emotional scale I interpret this as myself trying to find emotional support, not with Wendy, but with my co-workers. This leads to a revelation that I am not at all interested in being faithful with Wendy. I know this because in both Papa Johns and driving for Uber, had the opportunity to cheat arisen (which was pretty close a couple of times) I most likely would have taken it.

And this is a clear sign of a psychosocial crisis in stage 6; Intimacy vs. Isolation.
>Avoiding intimacy, fearing commitment and relationships can lead to isolation, loneliness, and sometimes depression. Success in this stage will lead to the virtue of love.

Thankfully, those opportunities were denied me, however, the intentions of my heart were true. Because of this and because of ending up unemployed again in late July, I fell into a depression. This is the point of the triangle Bitcoin falls out of on the chart, and at this point I remember sitting on the patio of my house, smoking weed, and listening to a song by Underoath called ["Too Bright To See, Too Loud To Hear"](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=63EetspU6Is). As I was listening and trying to decipher the song I got this urge to revisit an old forum I used to keep track of  back in 2008-2009 called [Godlike Productions](https://www.godlikeproductions.com/). It's mostly for conspiracy theorists, UFO believers, and the lunatic fringe, but I had found an interest in these topics after having watched a now 10-year-old documentary called "Zeitgeist".

Finding a new level of support was imperative at this point in my life and this coincides with Bitcoin falling out of the triangle in August 2014. These life circumstances, in conjunction with my past beliefs and the emotional effect from the song, triggered me to fall back onto my faith. I happen to believe in "End Time" events as depicted in the Bible, so I used to keep track of world news and conspiracy topics since having watched "Zeitgeist", although I don't believe that film through and through, I do believe the world both is and has been changing in relation to the depictions of events spoken of in the Bible. So, it only seemed natural at this point to find a church to attend that aligned with my path of "Christianity".

You often see me mention meeting emotional resistances and supports, but what does it actually mean? Based on my experiences and in my own words, I believe meeting an emotional resistance is akin to the feeling of *"Can it get any better than this?"*. Upon meeting that resistance the answer would almost certainly be *"no"* but only until a later date when you have consolidated your emotions, like having your heart broken only to experience time to heal and then trying again.

Finding emotional support is exactly how it sounds, finding support from the world around you or, in a sense, within you. In August of 2014, a spark within my mind urged me to turn back to faith, and seek support from a group of like-minded individuals that could quite possibly help me with my current life issues. In previous times I've relied on work and co-workers, Wendy and her family, and now I would rely on the church and its members for some kind of emotional foundation. But ultimately it's up to me to latch onto that support which was something I did not do. Yom Kippur would be the last time I set foot in this particular church, because they all prepared and attended the feast of Sukkot in October at a campground for 8 days, but because of my financial situation I could not attend and even if my finances were in order, just trying to submit the opportunity to Wendy would have been an entirely different challenge.

I was rather bummed out by that and did end up losing this kind of foundation, but it's no fault of the church or of mine either. From my perspective it's just something that had to happen, I suppose. This disconnection from the church leads me into getting my old job at Papa Johns back, and in this entire process playing out I'm trying to bridge what emotional gaps I've created with Wendy so that her and I can have a firmer relationship, even contemplating marriage. But this would all be short-lived, as one night in December, I both broke our relationship and got fired from my job. Having this foundation pulled out from beneath my feet leads me to fall onto an entirely new and different support; my Twtich.tv community.

To be continued...

I wish for peace and emotional balance to all of you.

Joe