低落 by julian2013

hive-105017 · @julian2013 · Feb 28 '21

$12.69

低落

不知道怎么形容目前这种灰暗煎熬无助的心态，有时充满希望，有时又感觉一片灰暗。总想早点结束这样黯淡的日子，要么重生，要么灭亡。


![img_5445.jpg](https://images.ecency.com/DQmUHVQywonpyE6Gxbi2PeuvKupxbtJSfCwLEDtMRBSoKfX/img_5445.jpg)


真想撇开这些纷扰，重新开始过我追求的宁静生活。我想安静下来看书写作，想以此来慰藉无处安放的心，可是这些世俗杂事总搅得我心烦如麻。也许上天有意考验我，让我经历苦难，而后得以永生。我就接受挑战，让暴风雨都来袭击吧！

我要坚持，认准一条道，即使撞得头破血流，也要坚持，现在重要的是修心，修心，心静自然伤害不到我。

人生有起伏，情绪有波动，希望我能早点摆脱这些负面情绪而重新精神抖擞地面对生活吧。

👍 abit, sweetsssj, eturnerx, investegg, cnbuddy, ctime, jim888, julian2013, steemcryptosicko, cnbuddy-reward, dailyke20, wilhb81, cherryzz, satoshil, hqy, voxmortis, dses, sylvia1997, gtpjfoodbank, abcallen, dailypro, wherein, andyhsia, janicechua, liuzg, cnstm, andrewma, fatman, melaniewang, htliao, coder-bts, changxiu, tina3721, dancingapple, good2believe, weddinggift, shine.wong, dbfoodbank, liewsc, jacktan, china.mobile, shenchensucc, omnivori, real3earch, bichen, yumisee, fun2learn, tanzy, tumutanzi, sunai, cn-malaysia, suhunter, jesusjacr, moneybaby, coldhair, patriciaphilip, hivecur2, lindalex, rollsman1, portraits

`author`	julian2013
`permlink`	172e558604604
`category`	hive-105017
`json_metadata`	{"image":["https://images.ecency.com/DQmUHVQywonpyE6Gxbi2PeuvKupxbtJSfCwLEDtMRBSoKfX/img_5445.jpg"],"tags":["hive-105017","cn","cn-reader","zzan","bpc"],"app":"ecency/3.0.14-mobile","format":"markdown+html"}
`created`	2021-02-28 00:18:51
`last_update`	2021-02-28 00:18:51
`depth`	0
`children`	2
`last_payout`	2021-03-07 00:18:51
`cashout_time`	1969-12-31 23:59:59
`total_payout_value`	6.500 HBD
`curator_payout_value`	6.187 HBD
`pending_payout_value`	0.000 HBD
`promoted`	0.000 HBD
`body_length`	367
`author_reputation`	390,745,746,096,298
`root_title`	低落
`beneficiaries`	`[]`
`max_accepted_payout`	1,000,000.000 HBD
`percent_hbd`	10,000
`post_id`	102,101,709
`net_rshares`	28,407,231,263,032
`author_curate_reward`	""

properties (23)vote details (60)

voter	rshares	pct
abit	12,909,507,200,839	50%
sweetsssj	10,400,260,158,252	33%
tumutanzi	1,283,519,882	50%
coldhair	892,445,338	50%
htliao	7,993,636,132	20%
shenchensucc	2,584,960,406	30%
eturnerx	1,350,276,031,702	36.4%
sylvia1997	35,786,521,643	100%
fatman	12,066,307,955	3%
dancingapple	4,822,924,690	20%
hqy	42,558,307,115	79.5%
gtpjfoodbank	32,135,772,308	90%
investegg	1,349,699,191,953	38%
lindalex	580,578,576	50%
cnbuddy	901,088,040,845	100%
jacktan	3,020,571,381	50%
jim888	165,141,326,667	8%
jesusjacr	896,666,782	15%
fun2learn	1,582,623,572	3%
suhunter	961,902,227	50%
yumisee	1,633,167,121	100%
wilhb81	59,582,799,235	10%
dailypro	17,948,448,818	50%
liewsc	3,043,330,903	50%
tanzy	1,418,126,201	50%
janicechua	14,814,029,496	20%
andrewma	12,523,929,811	50%
liuzg	13,338,789,062	50%
cn-malaysia	1,111,472,446	100%
dses	36,348,423,051	70%
moneybaby	893,368,370	2.5%
abcallen	23,601,284,393	50%
coder-bts	5,409,398,886	50%
shine.wong	3,974,994,495	100%
sunai	1,259,362,020	100%
china.mobile	2,931,566,536	50%
julian2013	149,172,605,788	100%
patriciaphilip	793,232,900	100%
melaniewang	8,968,361,569	50%
voxmortis	37,173,936,895	20%
changxiu	5,053,333,843	50%
cherryzz	54,224,774,149	50%
bichen	1,802,450,135	100%
steemcryptosicko	107,608,485,021	10%
wherein	17,455,395,048	5%
cnstm	13,065,901,763	5%
ctime	364,892,962,225	4%
good2believe	4,501,380,372	100%
tina3721	4,865,573,237	50%
andyhsia	15,755,794,754	100%
dailyke20	60,566,330,182	100%
omnivori	1,950,618,586	90%
cnbuddy-reward	73,141,922,844	100%
dbfoodbank	3,241,302,752	66.5%
real3earch	1,814,767,638	100%
weddinggift	4,483,447,104	100%
satoshil	53,005,655,573	100%
portraits	0	25%
hivecur2	721,851,545	5%
rollsman1	0	100%

`author`	hqy
`permlink`	re-julian2013-2021228t10647520z
`category`	hive-105017
`json_metadata`	{"tags":["hive-105017","cn","cn-reader","zzan","bpc"],"app":"ecency/3.0.14-vision","format":"markdown+html"}
`created`	2021-02-28 02:06:48
`last_update`	2021-02-28 02:06:48
`depth`	1
`children`	0
`last_payout`	2021-03-07 02:06:48
`cashout_time`	1969-12-31 23:59:59
`total_payout_value`	0.000 HBD
`curator_payout_value`	0.000 HBD
`pending_payout_value`	0.000 HBD
`promoted`	0.000 HBD
`body_length`	43
`author_reputation`	427,782,779,575,926
`root_title`	低落
`beneficiaries`	`[]`
`max_accepted_payout`	1,000,000.000 HBD
`percent_hbd`	10,000
`post_id`	102,102,689
`net_rshares`	0

`author`	jychbetter
`permlink`	qp7wco
`category`	hive-105017
`json_metadata`	{"app":"hiveblog/0.1"}
`created`	2021-02-28 02:31:57
`last_update`	2021-02-28 02:31:57
`depth`	1
`children`	0
`last_payout`	2021-03-07 02:31:57
`cashout_time`	1969-12-31 23:59:59
`total_payout_value`	0.000 HBD
`curator_payout_value`	0.000 HBD
`pending_payout_value`	0.000 HBD
`promoted`	0.000 HBD
`body_length`	12
`author_reputation`	815,133,680,142,556
`root_title`	低落
`beneficiaries`	`[]`
`max_accepted_payout`	1,000,000.000 HBD
`percent_hbd`	10,000
`post_id`	102,102,946
`net_rshares`	0