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Everytime I look at my right leg with a smaller size than my left leg, depression comes in. It remains a mystery because I went to many doctors and hospitals, but everything is normal. When my anxiety and loneliness once again kill my enjoynment, I don't know what to do. I become suicidal. 

Today, I went to the gym with my sister losing a focus, imagined my life before. It's not easy to live life like this. Silently, I daydream along the teardrops of desperateness that one day time comes back so I could enjoy the normal years before. I thought that when I'll reach my 20s, I'll be healthy and strong. It's a lesson to everybody to always be prepared of realities. Do not just dream, expect the greatest trial you have not been so there will be an immediate acceptance. 

I've thrown myself many times because I don't wanna live like this and seldom I think of my disease, I ask the reason to live for life is unfair. We work hard like the others, but others become successful than us. We did great things for our fellow, but why do we suffer than they? 

When I went back home, I was thankful I forgot I was depressed. I smiled and joked my family. We watched great movie because it is Saturday. After the movie, I went back to the room. I read the Bible 'coz I believe that through it, God will talk to me. 

Then, I opened the page in Proverbs. What amazes me is when it says (Panultihon) 18:14: 

**" Ang tinguha sa tao sa pagpakabuhi sa panahon sa balatian makalig-on kaniya apan kung mawad-an siya niini hayan nga mamatay siya."**

**New International Version
"The human spirit can endure in sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear?"**

I also remember what my brother-in-law said that there is no really problem of my health but my mind.