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I had a walk in a park


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today was a good day. I was out of bed early and had to appear in court. In a case I won. But that didn't happen by itself and luckily I had a good lawyer. Who gave me my life back. I come from a long way and I used to be a wild little man. Lots of drug experimentation. which sometimes got out of hand. I've been in several rehabs. And was just stubborn in making choices. I've never really engaged in criminal behavior. Except for drug use. forced admissions are really no fun and in the long run you have little to say about your own life. 13 years ago. I came to an understanding. my father was on vacation and almost died. he had to go to hospital and there was bleeding in his stomach and intestines. he had survived. but there and then I knew that and was a ticking time bomb. He has been dead for almost 4 years now. I have become very close with my mother. He also helped me with the costs of the lawyer. it wasn't cheap. but in the end worth every penny. I digress what I want to say 13 years ago I found out that if I want to have something to say about my life. and control it yourself. The first thing I had to stop doing is hard drugs. speed ecstasy but also alcohol I have no alcohol addiction. But it's a falcon pit for me. a gateway for hard drugs as a small fix against being drunk. I had to repeat that lesson many times to learn it. But I want to be sharp I feel better without it I'm more daring when I'm sober. and I'm also just more approachable. Cannabis is the medicine that gives me my peace of mind and is a life savior. I have been smoking for 25+ years and daily. Well sometimes the balance is lost and not much comes out of my hands. But my life is not getting worse. in fact I am moving forward in a stable line. Trust me I've had to fight for what I have now and I'm super grateful. I wouldn't have made it without the support of my parents either. But they will also fall away. my dad has already gone.

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So someone else handled my money matters. And on my dad's deathbed he . get out of that administration. that has to be done through a judge. The first attempt failed and broke me as a human being. I was angry and devastated. that lasted for 3 years half a year ago we called in a lawyer. and today it worked. I am in control of my own money again. And my dad would be proud from heaven.
I also try my best to just be a good person. I'm not holy but I'm good. I believe most people are good. But the feeling of being equal again and free to start a business again. feels good and is still a bit unreal.
What I want to achieve with this post. that people get isperation. people who also have no control over their own lives. start with yourself and see what you need to do to get better. And even if it sometimes seems endless. because that's what it was for me too. keep fighting and believing for what you stand for and belive in.

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live healthy find a balance. regularity is good for me and work too. what I refused to do for the last 2 years. But now that I can do it completely for myself again. I'd be stupid not to.
guys and ladies i am well medicated. and speak of my heart. I'm going to end my post I hope it helps someone. I also just had to tell someone. I also have a little faith in the rule of law again. I am grateful.
Peace 
Loonatic 
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