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<center><h1>「  Random Reflections Untangling My Mind 」</h1></center>


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It’s funny how these days I seem to have a lot of random obligations. These random obligations and even random involvements made me meet people from all types of walks in life. It’s like I was put into these situations to understand  things that would help me move on from my old life.

## When I meet some of these people, life is simple for them. 


By simple I mean, to them life is all about living one day at a time. They don’t really want anything beyond what they could actually grasp. 

As much as I tried that kind of  simple life, it was hard for me not to dream of something beyond what I can grab. 

Being back in this small house, I started to dream again. After all, this is where all the dreams and longing to have my freedom started. While I achieved some of them and my own freedom, it encouraged me to start new dreams. I guess this time, with a much newer perspective. 


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You could say, I was finally integrating myself into this community. Though I don’t know for how long I could be here, this is home now. For what it's worth, this home is the anchor that no matter how far I would go, I have a place I know I can return to whenever I want to. 

At first, living here I found a lot of things that I hate. I couldn’t really adapt well and I got annoyed by many things. In comparison to my previous place, this place is a lot more dynamic and fast paced. I spent many years living among people who are a lot calmer and they never felt a sense of rushed life. If life is simpler for the people around here, over there it was even more simpler. There was that tone of being humble and fully accepting their lives compared to where I live now. Now, I have to adapt to faster paced of life. 



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Despite how simple life can be for some of these people,  they still carried themselves with a lot of bravery and courage. They are the types that were never afraid of speaking what’s on their mind. You don’t get the aura of humbleness in them. It’s like they carried this unspoken attitude that life is meant to be enjoyed fully. From them,  instead of humbling myself a lot, I learned to be fine with talking about my life’s achievements or the things I had done in life. 

When I used to live in another place, being around them, I got the aura of this humbleness and they rarely talk about their achievement. At some point in my life, I liked being quite because of that, it's like I was training myself to even make my voice unheard of. But over here, I learned to speak again. I learn to voice out what I believe in and saying things that I really want without any type of fear. 

This reflection might sound really random as I have a lot of things to say & I want to get them out one by one. I have been pretty active in my community, helping around and living my life off the screen more. 


Back in the day, I always felt like I live for the screen. I went outside and had that sense that I should write about it. It's like I was trying new things for the sake of having something to write about. These days, I just go out, typically the same place and being fine if I have nothing to say or even go out with that same mindset I had a long time ago. 

And I am starting to get busy again with my translation job that I long abandoned. These days, I enjoyed doing it again. I am also working on a few things relating to my family business. I guess I wasn't fair in judging them and always seen them as the force of "evil". When I am being really fair and know how to assert my boundaries, it isn't that bad actually. At least now, when it gets bad,the exit door is always available to me. 


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