And I'm tired of writing messages that I can never send. by marius19

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life · @marius19 · Aug 27 '17

$18.01

And I'm tired of writing messages that I can never send.

I've been waiting for you for a while. I opened my arms wide and I'm waiting for you to come in and gather you tight. I want to hug you and never give you the way. You know how much I love you and how much I miss you, but you know that it's not always easy to admit it. I'm not that wonderful man you see in me. I'm just a man. I have nothing special, but I love you and I think that makes me be wonderful in your eyes. I want you to know that I'm still waiting for you.

I have been waiting for you for some time, as you used to always expect me and instead of getting upset when I was too late, you caught my nose between two fingers like a child and you said, "I love you." But my expectation is bitter, But I still expect you.

![20170827_225207.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmVZiwFTn9jiHgKLNtpdABMP8BVk1qxNmhGAattW2xcocN/20170827_225207.jpg)

"I expect you, you know? No, you had no way to know. It's uncomfortable to wait ... especially when you do not know how long you have to wait, but it's somewhat funny. I always hated waiting, and now I'm doing that. I'm waiting for you and I need patience. I could give up, but something does not leave me, so I'm waiting for you ... I'm still waiting for you. "

Wait, wait and wait again. He understood. You wait for her. And?

And I'm tired of writing messages that I can never send.

![IMG-20170827-WA0002.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmYZUsLct5dvanFwx3a7gGfsRuP3bjCHsUs3vU8jcuttvT/IMG-20170827-WA0002.jpg)

Then I was working my mind with such unsolicited messages, and now I am amusedly abused by them. I was constantly quarreling with myself because of them, and the criticisms were pretty harsh. It seems like all my maturity disappears, but that's how it happens when your love takes your mind. Am I the only one composing messages for the sake of composing?

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@jb-design · Aug 27 '17

You are not the only one, but it takes courage to post it for everyone to see! 
When i write something down, i burn it afterwards ^^ 
I express myself in my artworks, check them out if you have the time, i just released my second post :)

👍 fenya

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@piyushkansal · Aug 28 '17

Nice to read your interesting post.. great art work..

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@positivesteem · Aug 27 '17

$0.14

Writing is very therapeutic, and if you feel better after writing maybe you do not need to stop.

👍 positivesteem

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@qye · Aug 28 '17

Is it a reality you are experiencing or is it just writing? If the reality of the person you are waiting for will surely come!

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