I know some people are just naturally brilliant, once they go through a book, it's just as if the stuff jump and sticks to their brain, I don't understand how they just easily grasp and understand. Well, am not that kind of a fast learner.... And I really wish I am, but life didn't.  


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I can't say what I had was struggle... Huhm, that will be too harsh a word to use on myself, to some extent, I am intelligent, not just that kind of a fast learner, let's just say I am an average student. First off, the hardest thing I had to learn was not your regular/common thing, meaning it wasn't a course/subject in school. The hardest thing I ever had to grasp was *self-worth*. It might look kr sound simple to you, but I very well know how hard it was for me...I didn't grow up in your regular kind of place, so it was a bit tough. 









I grew up in a place where comparison is the main deal.....they measure you using other people's tape.... Look at your mate, see tundes brother, you are both age mate, she had A's, he's no more in the country, he's now married, she's a big business woman now......and many more are the things we hear....I I tried to keep up, I studied like..., I prayed, I work, I did all I could but even still, I couldn't catch up...I actually don't know why, but worse than not knowing the answers was me not knowing my value..... I feel I am not smart, knowledgeable, or fast enough.










I studied Agricultural Technology, this happens to be one of the courses people joke about, they laugh it off saying it was a very simple one. Well, I was like that when I just gained admission also, a time came and I found out this course was the exact opposite of my thought... And I was really breaking, aside that the course, I felt I wasn't supposed to come for it, am not brilliant enough or worthy of it.








I struggled through with Accountancy, soil science and soilless agriculture...yeah, we did a course that was very related to account. My course in full was *Agricultural Technology (Extension Management).. So we were to read and cover very wide, I would sit down through lectures pretending I understood, when in reality, I wasn't. ....




Maybe because I never thought Agric would be like that, it was much more than I bargained for, more like *what I ordered versus what I got*.... maths, English, chemistry, engineering courses and more, It just happened thay my brain didn’t seem to absorb the way others did. I began wondering if I was the problem. Maybe I am becoming or have become the *olodo* (dullard) I feared I’d become.








One day, in my second year, I failed a major test, it was a test for soiless agriculture, we were to do a practical by planting without using soil, just simple things are needed, a plastic bucket with cover, water, some disposable cups and stuffs. But, it just so happen that I failed.







And that night, I cried, soaked my pillow with my own tears and after I stood up and wrote a note to myslef...*Milliracle, don't give up, tey again, it's all a part of learning.......* and that note happen to become my anchor. I stopped trying to be the brightest, my aim is just to be better than I was yesterday. I studied with friends, I asked questions, I stopped reading for exams but now read to understand...By my third year, I was already doing tutorials for some, and that was when it dawned on me... I wasn’t dumb, I just needed to keep going and believe in me.


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Looking back now, am so happy and grateful, the guy who once doubted his brain is now the same guy people come to for explanation, tutorials clarity, coaching and all. Not that I became the best student, but I am finally doing well. The hardest thing I ever had to learn was to believe in myself, of which I did, even though I learned the hard, slow, uneasy and painful way.









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