I woke with a startle as the sedation wore off. It was dimly lit but I could see nurses walk by, hurrying to other patients. I felt pressure on my throat and nostril as I recall that I approved early the process of intubation. It was to give myself a fighting chance they said. Yet the tube felt thick and blocking my airway. I started to panic as I felt unable to breathe. In my mind it was illogical as the ventilator was supposed to help me and not choke me. Yet my body was not listening. I hyperventilate as I continue to panic![Alive.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/maverickinvictus/1FqpgmKM-Alive.jpg) I could hardly move, my muscles feeling weak but I managed to raise one hand and tried to look for the nurse call button to no avail. I wave my hand, trying desperately to get their attention but they continue to pass by. My heart rate races and the monitors start their incessant beeping. I feel my tears fall down as I have thoughts of dying here all alone in the dark. I haven't even said goodbye to my family yet. I haven't even said goodbye to her yet. What felt like an eternity when finally a nurse popped her head in to check the beeping. She said sorry and said they are swamped with so many patients. She took a needle and said she was administrating a mild sedative to calm me down. Like that, I drifted back to nothingness... <br> This was an account of the fear and panic I experienced the first time I awoke after being intubated. I got critically ill with COVID 19 and one of the organs that got hit really hard was my lungs were I experienced difficulty in breathing eventually reaching 67% oxygen saturation levels and turning blue. It was scary because I was afraid of dying alone in the ward. I did not want to be a statistic. I had eventually gotten better but I still remember that scene vividly.
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gerber | 0 | 302,700,458,611 | 7% | ||
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ezzy | 0 | 470,841,238,516 | 7% | ||
bitshares101 | 0 | 109,166,480,102 | 25% | ||
arcange | 0 | 68,381,821,975 | 2% | ||
exyle | 0 | 367,485,196,554 | 7% | ||
raphaelle | 0 | 1,800,242,239 | 2% | ||
miketr | 0 | 6,853,747,233 | 5% | ||
bert0 | 0 | 2,085,517,979 | 0.4% | ||
netaterra | 0 | 126,086,606,570 | 6.3% | ||
someguy123 | 0 | 139,762,547,462 | 7% | ||
abh12345 | 0 | 209,000,776,125 | 6% | ||
slider2990 | 0 | 2,062,061,158 | 6% | ||
steemitboard | 0 | 3,463,059,099 | 2% | ||
privex | 0 | 13,173,577,980 | 14% | ||
dune69 | 0 | 51,693,609,485 | 7% | ||
iansart | 0 | 8,656,101,883 | 3.5% | ||
rycharde | 0 | 1,201,907,665 | 10% | ||
d-pend | 0 | 2,770,202,364,363 | 100% | ||
vallesleoruther | 0 | 84,054,566,353 | 100% | ||
felt.buzz | 0 | 73,485,646,949 | 20% | ||
shitsignals | 0 | 2,940,397,953 | 7% | ||
jasonbu | 0 | 34,895,360,382 | 17% | ||
accelerator | 0 | 55,554,814,709 | 5% | ||
tomiscurious | 0 | 23,871,112,317 | 9.3% | ||
fatman | 0 | 14,326,955,273 | 7.65% | ||
moneyinfant | 0 | 9,054,212,863 | 30% | ||
investegg | 0 | 27,100,998,108 | 0.69% | ||
caladan | 0 | 12,234,497,439 | 6.65% | ||
g10a | 0 | 1,458,063,570 | 5% | ||
emrebeyler | 0 | 174,681,299,147 | 7% | ||
jhiecortez | 0 | 559,571,718 | 100% | ||
gheghenrv | 0 | 2,057,520,487 | 10% | ||
deeday31 | 0 | 2,023,798,320 | 25% | ||
migztaraki | 0 | 570,090,072 | 100% | ||
tpkidkai | 0 | 3,971,836,542 | 12.5% | ||
jude.villarta | 0 | 639,753,883 | 25% | ||
davinsh | 0 | 5,356,570,439 | 100% | ||
nealmcspadden | 0 | 93,892,967,902 | 7% | ||
tryskele | 0 | 1,102,107,913 | 1.2% | ||
leslierevales | 0 | 3,180,037,055 | 50% | ||
purefood | 0 | 8,122,578,776 | 7% | ||
shella | 0 | 1,906,478,802 | 100% | ||
tobias-g | 0 | 12,578,085,647 | 4.5% | ||
investyourvote | 0 | 2,172,450,679 | 6% | ||
jazzhero | 0 | 2,811,218,234 | 6.25% | ||
unconditionalove | 0 | 589,311,019 | 3.5% | ||
danielpendrgraft | 0 | 1,116,433,702 | 100% | ||
lykaypajaro | 0 | 605,394,161 | 100% | ||
pkocjan | 0 | 3,048,756,469 | 5.6% | ||
ameliabartlett | 0 | 924,412,874 | 5% | ||
beeyou | 0 | 7,564,590,663 | 20% | ||
rubencress | 0 | 192,455,282,878 | 100% | ||
neihy05 | 0 | 2,866,012,814 | 100% | ||
reginecruz | 0 | 3,139,490,328 | 100% | ||
wilsonblue5 | 0 | 15,811,954,421 | 50% | ||
isgledysduarte | 0 | 1,242,455,898 | 25% | ||
bestboom | 0 | 19,573,006,329 | 7% | ||
elizah | 0 | 700,088,695 | 100% | ||
racibo | 0 | 1,038,381,873 | 6% | ||
freddio | 0 | 17,758,576,039 | 15% | ||
sustainablelivin | 0 | 1,371,364,134 | 12.5% | ||
giftinkindph | 0 | 5,096,393,098 | 100% | ||
payroll | 0 | 87,142,493,812 | 2% | ||
nikkimariel | 0 | 872,338,988 | 100% | ||
abbyzd | 0 | 541,816,019 | 100% | ||
we-are | 0 | 1,842,867,386 | 15.62% | ||
romeskie | 0 | 27,779,933,951 | 25% | ||
steem.services | 0 | 46,018,110,832 | 1.75% | ||
pladozero | 0 | 71,035,314,634 | 10% | ||
ntowl | 0 | 554,650,958 | 12.5% | ||
nateaguila | 0 | 297,947,027,890 | 8% | ||
freewritehouse | 0 | 135,235,100,563 | 25% | ||
steemitpoetry | 0 | 783,352,784 | 100% | ||
thefoundation | 0 | 20,585,707,253 | 73.17% | ||
sarez | 0 | 4,536,934,941 | 19.5% | ||
dalz | 0 | 11,951,889,075 | 3.5% | ||
dlike | 0 | 85,263,737,495 | 7% | ||
voxmortis | 0 | 1,012,569,871 | 0.5% | ||
engrave | 0 | 96,566,270,213 | 5.6% | ||
bobby.madagascar | 0 | 2,360,311,957 | 3.5% | ||
laissez-faire | 0 | 115,695,065 | 100% | ||
voter003 | 0 | 23,883,994,481 | 21.55% | ||
ravensavage | 0 | 42,677,543,913 | 100% | ||
creativeblue | 0 | 2,809,983,279 | 50% | ||
ldp | 0 | 899,048,667 | 7% | ||
berthold | 0 | 2,525,102,008 | 6% | ||
merlin7 | 0 | 82,381,609,246 | 7% | ||
followjohngalt | 0 | 51,634,541,556 | 7% | ||
cakemonster | 0 | 4,457,554,476 | 3.5% | ||
danpendergraft | 0 | 6,343,816,075 | 50% | ||
infinite-love | 0 | 6,413,305,420 | 100% | ||
xlnt | 0 | 904,645,357 | 100% | ||
dumbsteem | 0 | 2,598,879,169 | 100% | ||
juliamulcahy | 0 | 687,664,286 | 12.5% | ||
monsterguru | 0 | 1,160,248,309 | 100% | ||
permaculturedude | 0 | 2,730,098,518 | 7% | ||
humanspirit | 0 | 1,836,577,923 | 100% | ||
goodcontentbot | 0 | 806,938,398 | 15% | ||
hungryharish | 0 | 558,040,092 | 1.75% | ||
mfblack | 0 | 35,048,918,698 | 6.65% | ||
bergelmirsenpai | 0 | 1,346,755,043 | 22.5% | ||
threejay | 0 | 1,921,397,050 | 3.5% | ||
sm-silva | 0 | 774,021,798 | 3.5% | ||
steemindian | 0 | 593,461,725 | 3.5% | ||
triplea.bot | 0 | 2,491,781,098 | 7% | ||
steem.leo | 0 | 70,402,635,889 | 7% | ||
freddio.sport | 0 | 5,085,984,777 | 15% | ||
asteroids | 0 | 7,597,268,116 | 6.3% | ||
mapxv | 0 | 3,016,047,573 | 29% | ||
botante | 0 | 5,418,004,534 | 1.75% | ||
beta500 | 0 | 8,046,527,603 | 7% | ||
maxuv | 0 | 2,291,386,765 | 80% | ||
maxuvc | 0 | 4,224,205,154 | 70% | ||
maxuvd | 0 | 22,903,573,876 | 6% | ||
maxuve | 0 | 28,579,495,336 | 6% | ||
huaren.news | 0 | 32,424,704,801 | 100% | ||
gerbo | 0 | 38,130,412 | 7% | ||
ribary | 0 | 2,300,493,613 | 3.5% | ||
hive-161155 | 0 | 82,528,801,947 | 50% | ||
mice-k | 0 | 34,752,328,954 | 7% | ||
curamax | 0 | 4,260,392,444 | 7% | ||
shovelpile | 0 | 13,337,132,062 | 100% | ||
dpend.extra | 0 | 1,325,959,236 | 80% | ||
dpend.active | 0 | 1,304,956,174 | 1.4% | ||
fengchao | 0 | 2,270,907,833 | 2% | ||
folklure | 0 | 14,811,185,474 | 100% | ||
hivephilippines | 0 | 18,783,772,346 | 12.5% | ||
visionaer3003 | 0 | 251,788,213,200 | 7% | ||
polish.hive | 0 | 19,854,148,733 | 7% | ||
quello | 0 | 19,081,702,173 | 4.5% | ||
dcityrewards | 0 | 203,707,882,789 | 7% | ||
localgrower | 0 | 1,819,755,546 | 3.4% | ||
iamyohann | 0 | 7,009,483,827 | 25% | ||
hivecur | 0 | 166,798,943,608 | 7% | ||
hatschi0773 | 0 | 78,251,969,000 | 7% | ||
discohedge | 0 | 1,326,488,625 | 3.5% | ||
dagobert007 | 0 | 264,463,070,042 | 7% | ||
jonalyn2020 | 0 | 620,345,153 | 12.5% |