It's said that misery loves company, but I'm not miserable, as I'm supposed to be?

No need to tell you of my sob story and medical conditions.  They were only the catalyst for our present situation, and I have no way to go back in time and rectify it.   What I need to discover is why I'm not depressed, or maybe I am and just don't know it.

When we built this home in 2002 we had every intention of living here until "death do us part".  I had a very lucrative position in a large insurance corporation and over the course of 10 years I worked my way up the corporate ladder.  Long story short, I reported some unethical practices of a Regional Vice President to the CEO.  Big mistake if I wanted to keep my position.  I was demoted and soon after I left.  I was not going to screw my clients and engage in unethical activities that were apparently blessed by the company Popes.  After seeing the same lack of ethics at a different insurance company I went to work for I decided to get out of the business completely and work with my hands.  Without going into detail, this is where I contracted some medical issues.  Nuff said.

At this point you may be wondering why this post is listed under Anarchy.  Well, in 2006 Ron Paul introduced me to The Freedom Movement and since that time I've read so many works on anarchism and the evils of government (Govern- limit, control or manipulate.  Mente- the mind).  I decided after my injuries that I would make my best attempt to not give government the fruits of my labor through taxation.  I started selling on ebay, craigslist and did some odd jobs under the table.  This didn't provide the income I needed to make a mortgage payment but we were eating and I'd be damned if I was going to collect welfare or food stamps as I know they are theft.  Sadly as of late my sales have been greatly diminished and the odd jobs I can do have dried up.

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So why am I not depressed with all this life strife?  My wife certainly is and I don't think my son is happy that we may soon be in a homeless shelter.  Is my lack of depression the result of holding onto principle above gain?  Am I a fool for clinging to principle so hard?  Maybe depression will hit me when the Sheriff's sale occurs., but my head is clear knowing that I haven't contributed to paying for killing people in other places or throwing people in rape cages.