At some points in our lives we all had to deal with unique kind of fears and to deal with them separately. While these fear bear different name tags we were able to conquer some while others remained with us. I can't say if there is any individual who doesn't have one thing or the other which he is not afraid of. No matter how strong we present yourself that fear might be the weakness we have to deal with. 

Furthermore what might seem to be my greatest fear can possibly be somethings that gives someone else pleasure and this is just one of the irony's of life. Fear is perceived to be our human nature of responding to danger/dangerous situations and often times engages the mind and emotions, this stimuli can cause us to react and successful escape danger but a constant exposure to dangerous situations can expose one to a greater level of fear for specific things, at this stage it is rather preferred to be called "Phobia" rather than just fear.

Google described this kind of fear(phobia) as excessive irrational uncontrollable and lasting form of fear <a href='https://www.google.com/search?q=phobia&oq=phobia+&aqs=chrome.0.69i59.2639j0j9&client=ms-android-transsion&sourceid=chrome-mobile&ie=UTF-8'> source </a> probably of people or even situation. I'm sure you all know that there is a dear we often had for people in higher authority.



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Talking about fear in whatever context I have had some few personal experiences, some I was able to overcome while the others have remained with and no possible solution in the light yet. Fear of height is one thing I can never get over. As small as a single storey building can be, don't dare try to take me near the rail line passage because i will faint before there is even a fall. I can't stand by the balcony or go close to the window as long as a building is a step away from the ground. This is one thing I am yet to overcome and I kept imagining how my first ever flight ✈️ in the air will be like because of this singular fear.


Away from that simple form of fear above the other kind of fear that has hunted me for years is the fear of Authority and public speaking. I wouldn't have had any issues with public speaking if my teenage person was the very one that grew right into adulthood. Too many swaps happened along the line. The talkative 🦜 teenager grew up to became antisocial and introverted adults, too many negative experience and exposure caused this. 
It became so bad that even while I performed so well with my final year project practical in school I was unable to open my mouth before an external supervisor to defend the project I had personally conducted.

The people on sit and stage at the time, couples with the higher education authority present I didn't utter a word until I stepped down the stage, the story about how I graduated without defending that project is yet for another day.

# Then this one time I had to speak up for myself 

I have had these lovely god parents over my life who have stood in for me in everyway ever since my mum's demise. And because of parental authorities over children I gave them that privilege to be my guide but at some points things began to go too far and ugly that they will decide my sleeping and waking up time even as an adult. They felt that I needed some form of disciple and home training which I dimed unnecessary because our cultures are different and what they see as raising a child was different from what my experience was with my biological parents. Conflict kept arrising every now and then and I was tagged a disobedient child. The kinds of discipline I kept receiving was strange and new to me until I develop this fear for my god parents. A single call on my name can make me go panicking until that one day I stood up to confront them. It was a matter concerning my career in life and I was been giving a directive to follow a path that I will never feel Fulfilled.
I stood up and spoke to them boldly about the direction I want my life to go and what I want to do as against what they were offering. That moment they knew that I was now a matured adult and should be able to bear the consequences of whatever comes out of my decision. I felt like a hero for once to have broken free from such authoritative parenting. Im no longer afraid of them and we often talk out things having them to only suggest rather than impose their decisions on me. Children should be raised in love and care rather than a fear that can make them lose their voice in life and before their equals.
  




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