Punched Me in The Face by nineclaws

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hive-150329 · @nineclaws · Sep 21 '21

$23.59

Punched Me in The Face

# <center>Punched Me in The Face</center>

<center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>**DOUBLE PUNCH**</center>
<center>![01_DOUBLE PUNCH.JPG](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23tvYHoy62KoVkUaYN9wYJYGJsKAz2ymhSDJnTP9bS7Ptx71QBRbxit3DCeTdq1uPV9Ji.JPG)</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>It’s sucker punched me in the face again. I’ve had a respite from it since somewhere around May. It snuck up on me last weekend. It started with this restless crawling feeling, this disquiet inside me. I was furiously shuffling through song after song, genre after genre in the wee hours of Sunday morning, looking for some solace. Nothing satisfied and everything grated until I randomly picked something I haven’t listened to in about five years, [Empty Streets](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUP6zbi3ABQ).</center>
<center>Settled in with that for a bit while I attended to a few things and had a longer conversation with a good friend. I’ve only recently realized how much we are walking a similar path. It’s funny how you can know someone for almost a year before something like that becomes apparent. **Face palm moment.**</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>**FRIENDSHIP**</center>
<center>![02_FRIENDSHIP.JPG](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23wMMUSSJoSgM3YQ4L4HRufQarRQ2McUhjWeANdcjJfWn6ZYN7smg1ciAXLp733dQDcE6.JPG)</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>*Well<sub>lll</sub><sub><sub>lll</sub></sub><sub><sub><sub>lll</sub></sub></sub><sub><sub><sub><sub>.........</sub></sub></sub></sub>* he reminded me of several important things I needed to hear in that moment. Things I know; but, as always, it’s too easy to become distracted by the world and lose some threads. *Are my jeans threadbare yet?* Nope, just well worn in, like me. I went to sleep with those thoughts, let them sit in my dreams, whatever those were. I don’t recall dreams. I’ve set things in place so that rarely happens.</center>

<center>The next day, it was wake up and thoughts of what needed to be done. Yes, I’m a list person. There’s a long list in my head right now. I usually write things down in a notebook to clear my mind and to avoid missing anything time sensitive. This particular list is revolving in my brain, plus a bunch of other things dancing for attention. I ended up missing something so simple in my last post, assigning the cover image to an image, not a page divider. Twice now, I’ve done this. Not something I’d typically do, make the same mistake twice, and so soon after the first time.</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>**PURPLE HAZE**</center>
<center>![03_PURPLE HAZE.JPG](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23tGc5vMvtQkGEJZiR3uhxX6DdZzfoQ4JJcAPbgnX92RjnxxCEY9UqR9Cw8RRmh6KqtnL.JPG)</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>I had my moment of absolute aggravation with myself (all of five minutes). Who can annoy me better than I can? ***No one.*** Shuffling through another load of music, I finally pick a more recent track from early last year, [Separated](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mR2UvCagqeA).</center> 

<center>Then I let it go, walked out the door with music in tow, took a stroll, and came back to sit on the lawn on the side of my building to watch life pass by. I like to take a pause whenever I need to. I sat there still feeling that edgy restlessness. I had a silent conversation with myself. I want to leave this place. It’s been just over ten years of searching to bring that into ***still not being reality.***</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>**LOCKED**</center>
<center>![04_LOCKED.JPG](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23uFHFmCjYaSkJ2Fa5JykAAR9GsGoyeiC5CYaErsLaHCJkgRbACgk8ogdqvASCDh9sTNj.JPG)</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>I’m hearing from inside myself, *“be patient, its coming, the timing, the timing, get yourself ready”.* I have no clue what’s coming. I’m flying on pure intuition and choosing to step where that leads me. It’s just recently led me in a direction that makes zero sense logically, but I’m doing it anyway. Listening to my intuition has never failed me.</center>
<center>Back inside my apartment, I go sit on my balcony while looking out towards the trees and sky. I’m so lucky to have a view not completely filled with buildings. After a half hour, I come in to get caught up on some tasks, only to have the music rolodex start all over again. Into my head pops a very old favourite, [Wild As The Wind](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rDuy874spGg).</center> 
<center>This is the song that hits me hard. Listening to it touches the core of me. I only feel the need to hear it when I’m grieving. So there it is again. ***’How are you, my dear friend, did you think I’d departed already?”***, as the grief smashes me in the face and I sob while listening to this song.</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>**FAINTLY BELOVED**</center>
<center>![05_FAINTLY BELOVED.JPG](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23tbrtk9TL9toDTNyzjPv53zq6Ee1gKTXwYhtB88UzcTYp1XFTc4uAoiSfpwThgTKdYTs.JPG)</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>What am I grieving? It’s a long list. ***Everything, absolutely everything.*** I am letting go of one thing after another and just recently intensified that process. This is why grief is visiting me again. It snuck up on me because I’ve been distracted and stuck too much in the mind.</center> 

<center>**Time out time again.**</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center>**CARCASS**</center>
<center>![06_CARCASS.JPG](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/Eo8LzowxRM4CR1YkU7djpTdVxR3ZkP5zB53QmQPSgizscKRS5bmNdJCJ1WUTnrx6XXQ.JPG)</center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center><center><sub>*All photos taken by Nine with a Pentax digital 35mm camera and 90mm Tamron macro lens.*</sub></center><center>![Page break.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nineclaws/23swXV8TTdSfCAMefZgEG2MHmtqq9ibT4QeFL1viVbJRuMz1ESKLDzDm7ghTfphgCFV3K.png)</center>

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dune69	1,233,668,080	0.17%
thenightflier	726,905,650	80%
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iansart	612,181,434	0.2%
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followbtcnews	168,925,338,151	15%
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crimsonclad	153,810,141,194	15%
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darsico	1,290,133,580,419	100%
gniksivart	43,815,556,185	10%
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codingdefined	32,038,829,743	8%
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shasta	142,308,635,533	47%
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markjason	1,369,715,118	5.07%
fatman	7,203,520,970	2%
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bigdizzle91	11,352,060,759	100%
sayee	2,506,602,754	2.53%
heidi71	58,323,072,144	80%
esteem.app	1,626,921,843	5.75%
dandays	809,925,956,302	99%
caladan	1,200,808,915	0.17%
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bangjuh	2,020,939,053	100%
brandt	30,142,523,554	100%
ocupation	50,735,458,320	9.7%
marcolino76	11,227,397,574	40%
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aamin	1,115,646,721	5.07%
sco	1,865,938,317	6.08%
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alqif	989,942,301	100%
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taldor	614,361,615	3.04%
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xawi	656,445,017	2.53%
jancharlest	556,882,820	10.14%
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pandaparker	372,840,951	100%
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wrestlingdesires	40,823,394,375	100%
eulymer	528,076,377	2.53%
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apx	70,689,888	8%
atma.love	0	100%
mice-k	0	0.2%
dpend.active	2,120,753,669	2.02%
fengchao	6,522,609,754	2%
blue-witness	4,356,235,887	100%
polish.hive	253,654,384	0.2%
onebtcofhive	22,989,771,300	100%
dcityrewards	6,636,734,595	0.2%
ecency	2,630,257,364,776	5.75%
catinthewindow	10,622,533,134	86.13%
hivecur	323,794,665	0.2%
ajaycapital	1,424,274,239	10%
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issymarie2	1,040,073,259	5.07%
motherhood	15,892,909,568	50%
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paolazun	556,210,288	5.07%
stayten	46,856,896,796	100%
dcrops	685,686,182	0.1%
eldritchspig	10,257,685,944	100%
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rubido	21,213,308,791	100%
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emybaby	3,064,201,761	10.14%
mrhoofman	2,693,344,548	2.53%
giulius	2,556,205,385	50%
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magic.lotus	136,390,469	100%
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@asif7 · Sep 22 '21

The flow of thoughts are really good in your write, you make Ideas and stories really a discrete tone, well appreciated :).

properties (22)

@nineclaws · Sep 22 '21

Thank you for checking out my post and I'm glad you enjoyed it.

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@astrocat-3663 · Sep 23 '21

That lock looks like its 3-5 decades old

👎 anddumbcunts

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@nineclaws · Sep 23 '21

I'm not sure how old, couldn't read the dates clearly.

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@bil.prag · Sep 22 '21

$0.03

> Who can annoy me better than I can? No one. 

this reminded me of a sentence/quote that i first read in S.K. - It. "we lie best when we lie to ourselves" (it was in Serbian, so maybe it is not the exact translation :D)

👍 nineclaws

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@nineclaws · Sep 22 '21

$0.10

That's very much on point. 😁 The lies we tell ourselves....that is the root issue. Excellent translation.

👍 bil.prag

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@atma.love · Oct 20 '21 (edited)

The ultimate lie (or false belief) being that this is me, ie. the belief in the false sense of i (body/persona)

Sat Nam
Atma

!PGM

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@brandt · Sep 22 '21

$0.03

Is _FAINTLY BELOVED_ a zoom up on _DOUBLE PUNCH?_ It looks like it might be, I'm just curious.

> It snuck up on me because I’ve been distracted and stuck too much in the mind.

Love that sentence. So perfectly written.

👍 nineclaws
👎 anddumbcunts

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@nineclaws · Sep 22 '21

They are actually two different headstones. The cemetery is just over 200 years old, from what I recall. It has many old crypts, tombstones, and mausoleums. The stone is eroded on many of them. I love things in state of decay like this, the character, the story they tell.

>Love that sentence. So perfectly written.

Thank you @brandt, I really appreciate hearing that. 😊

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@dandays · Sep 21 '21

Yeah ok, 5 minutes. *Sure.*

Separated—does Koch in Robot Koch *sound like* "coke" or something else?

I wouldn't be able to pretend I could draw if that Nina Simone track was playing.

Thank you, *that was fun.* By.. wait eh! Next time you need tuned up you could be all like <a href=https://youtu.be/OY0Mk9kTs8M>WWDD</a>? *(I almost forgot)*

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@nineclaws · Sep 22 '21

>Yeah ok, 5 minutes. Sure.

I'll give you the synopsis of how it went, the conversation in my head:

*You can sit here and have a freak out about something you can't change if you want to. I'll give you 5 minutes to totally lose it. After 5 minutes we're going to have a good look at what's really bothering you. 5 minutes, no more.*

I have a few minutes of being really aggravated, then it starts to go all silent in my head before it even hit 5 minutes. I am not wasting time and energy getting disturbed by something I cannot change and especially when I can see there's something deeper below the surface that I'm not attending to. 

I've conditioned myself like a dog for years. Not only that, I made a commitment to myself years ago. It's very much like a relationship with a partner, where you are there for them, give them support and whatever you can do out of love for them. That's the relationship I have with myself. It took a long time to grow that.

>Separated—does Koch in Robot Koch sound like "coke" or something else?

That's hilarious. That's just so freaking hilarious. 🤣🤣🤣

>I wouldn't be able to pretend I could draw if that Nina Simone track was playing.

Lies, all lies, you visual artist. Nina is Nina. There is no other.

>Thank you, *that was fun.*

Was it fun? Was it really? Of course I know it was. I know exactly what you're snickering about. 🤣

>(I almost forgot)

It
### *⚡⚡Shocks⚡⚡*
me when you forget.

Nice tune by the way, lol. Thanks for stopping by, reading my post and leaving your *specialness* here. I ***always*** appreciate your comments.  💖

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@dandays · Sep 22 '21

You liked the abbreviation then, *cool.*

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@dandays · Sep 23 '21

I Meant To Say I'm impressed With Your Aesthetically Punctuated New Title Format

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@nineclaws · Sep 23 '21

Why thank you! I'm impressed you're impressed.

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@dandays · Sep 28 '21

https://youtu.be/x-3--xhNTCg

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@nineclaws · Sep 29 '21

🤣🤣🤣

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@dandays · Sep 29 '21

And now that we know I shared this in two places and you said what you said when you didn't see it in both places the first time, *your title* sure is funny.

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@mondoshawan · Sep 26 '21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I-PK3sbxvhw

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@nineclaws · Sep 26 '21

😂 💜

👍 mondoshawan

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@wrestlingdesires · Sep 27 '21

$0.04

I hope you can find happiness soon, sounds like you had a tough week :( ....


!PIZZA

👍 nineclaws

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@nineclaws · Sep 29 '21

Thanks, it's better this week, but now I'm paying attention, LOL. I have a contented quietness inside, so that's my happy, as I weather rough waters. Thank you for the pizza! 😊

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@wrestlingdesires · Sep 29 '21

Just don't let them get you down :)

!PIZZA

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