My Lifelong Obsession, a Freewrite by owasco

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hive-161155 · @owasco · Jan 2 '23

$8.27

My Lifelong Obsession, a Freewrite

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I have been longing for a cigarette for more than 40 years. 

When I was young, so much younger than today (sorry), I smoked a fair amount. No more than 6 or 8 fags a day usually, but still, that was too much. Eventually I would start having a raspy voice and sore throat at all times. When this happened, I would try to quit smoking. 

My technique was to put off my first cigarette of the day as long as I could stand it, eventually smoking only one in the evening, or when I went out. I'd then stop altogether for a while. After a month or more (one time I made it a full year), I would tell myself that I could handle a drag or two. But the first drag was too light, the second too strong, and I would think "I’ve come this far, I need to have one good drag." 

Of course one good drag always relit my love of cigarettes, and I would be right back at the beginning, smoking all day long. 

I finally quit by telling myself I could start up again when I was 60 years old. I craved cigarettes every single day until my 60th birthday. I would have had a cigarette then too, except that I told one of my daughters my plan, and she begged me not to do it. 

I guess my daughter won, because here I am closing in on 70 and I still have not had a single drag since I was 25. 

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This is my entry to @mariannewest's daily freewrite [challenge](https://peakd.com/hive-161155/@mariannewest/day-1905-5-minute-freewrite-monday-prompt-longing-for-a-cigarette). Today's prompt is ***longing for a cigarette***. 

I once again used the most dangerous writing app. Here's a screen shot to prove it. I love this app now. I don't think I will ever write another freewrite without it. Why not? 

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@deirdyweirdy · Jan 3 '23

I can resist anything except temptation!:)

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@owasco · Jan 3 '23

lol!

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@dswigle · Jan 3 '23

Long ago and far away, I smoked, but, it took me over a year to learn how. I am not sure why it was important for me to learn, but, it was. Perhaps because everyone else found it so easy to do. 

I felt like a failure. Ha!

I quit because I didn't want to be pregnant and smoking and I didn't want my kids to know I smoked. I guess I really didn't have any backbone. 

Hang till 70, then extend it one more time! The kids will be overjoyed.  ❤️

Happy New Year!

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@owasco · Jan 3 '23

$0.12

Oh how I loved smoking! I felt so adult (started in my teens like most of us) and elegant. Smart. Independent. Until I started coughing. I'm sorry you felt like a failure, but in essence, that was a good thing. 

I also quit because breeding seemed to be in my future - I had met my future husband. It was another 11 years before we produced any offspring though. We had to get some businesses up and running first. 

Happy New Year Love!! Joy, Peace, Prosperity and Health to us all!

👍 dswigle

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@dswigle · Jan 3 '23

I guess failure was the wrong way of putting it, but, something so simple as smoking and my body hacked up a lung every time I tried. :)  We should always listen to our bodies, yes?

One of the smarter people, setting themselves up and running before they start producing! I should have known!

Happy New Year, plus one! 

> Happy New Year Love!! Joy, Peace, Prosperity and Health to us all!

Absolutely~ ❤️

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@myjob · Jan 3 '23

I quit 30 years ago and still would love to smoke one, it is a powerful drug.

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@owasco · Jan 3 '23

Same here!! I might do it yet, but I want to make sure it's organic, preferably grown by me. I've tried growing it a number of times, but each time it gets infested with something. I suppose I am lucky that it does.

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@myjob · Jan 3 '23

My husband grew his own tobacco once, I can not say how it tasted because I had quit by then. I am so glad that he finally quit.

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