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So it looks like 5 days of work in the matrix remain, making me get up at 4 am, getting home at 9 pm just to do it all over again. I really don't know where I get the strength to do this. There's a peculiar sense of getting exactly what I wanted out of this matrix revisit, at the same time I feel most of my old prejudices, insights and research on the nature of the system machine justified and confirmed.

Most of the work we are doing, preparing convention halls, hanging lights, hammering trusses and loading trucks really is unnecessary if it was actually about solving these logistic problems. Robots could do this so much better and more efficiently. But I get the feeling - in addition to my studies about the system - that these industries are purposefully kept alive so that most people may continue existing in the old paradigm of TIME AT WORK = RIGHT TO LIVE. Because they believe in it so much...

And so, since I have been preparing for my mission into the unknown consciously, I can rip these hours with a smile and I am thrilled to see the end of them. It's the best work opportunity the matrix could provide for me I feel, provided everything I know, want and can do for others, going far beyond my work quality which is excellent by the way. I get to support my coworkers in believing in themselves, their own mission, and putting that into the center of their existence more and more.

I feel like an unseeming gardener in the courtyard of a king doing his work silently, preparing and sowing seeds for all those keen to receive them. Before I wander off, becoming an inspiring memory to all thsoe who don't yet dare to take a leap.

And so, since I am on my last stretch in terms of everything old paradigm, and since it has been a long and tough workday, doing the same tomorrow and 4 more times next week I just wanted to capture my exhaustion and my positive outlook for the time beyond September when all my energy will move back to my missions. I feel the matrix has been sufficiently fed and this was a really good idea. But let's not kid ourselves, this system is dead and the longer we hold on to that paradigm - despite all the glaring blunders against our capabilities, our passions and our will - the longer our actual life missions will be delayed.

5 more days of everything else on hold. Then, to new frontiers! Onwards <3

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