Yeah man, I feel you on this one. And I seem to be in a similar situation. Life is asking more from me than I have ever given, and with the unknown comes doubt and fear - old programming. 
We are being called forward into our 'true life', and it requires going through the greyness of deprogramming. I believe in you man, and I think if you look back you will see how you have already made a lot of changes despite resistance. It's simply a matter of staying true to the course regardless of mental / emotional constructs trying to pull you in. You are the almighty being! and all such states depend on your attention for sustenance :)