A brief rambling poem came flooding out when I was in the middle of shadow work earlier... πΈπΈπΈ it just shows you I am human & going through the awakening process just as many of you are... πΈπΈπΈ Not sure why I am sharing this since this shows more of my vulnerability. But maybe someone can read this & know they aren't alone. π€πβ¨ πΈπΈπΈπΈ  Sometimes, it's just so damn hard to let go.. β¨ When I think I finally broke free from the heartbreak & shifting in energy... β¨ When I think I am finally past this... β¨ When I think I can move on from the bond that connects us... β¨ It hits me all over again from out of the blue. It surprises me, leaving me breathless & my heart hurting. My mind reels as I try to maintain composure... β¨ It's true, I still love you & know I always will... β¨ But in time, I know I will be all right... β¨ I will allow myself to cry, to feel, to honor the feelings of loving you, because it's something I will never regret...it helped me learn about myself & made me stronger. You have been a gift... β¨ Someone is out there for me, this I know...but in the meantime, I will continue to be comfortable in my own company & help others shine their light onto the world... β¨ In the meantime, just be gentle with me. My heart is still fragile.... β¨  Posted using [Partiko Android](https://partiko.app/referral/pixiepost)
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Thank you!! I love you!! ππβ¨
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Thank you for sharing your emotions with us. And you are not alone.
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<em>Thank you for sharing Your emotions with us. And You are not alone. </em> <sup>- ph1102</sup> --- <sup><sup><em>I'm a bot. I detect haiku.</em></sup></sup>
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Thank you for allowing me to share them. π And for being there ππ» Posted using [Partiko Android](https://partiko.app/referral/pixiepost)
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