I am learning to live... by priyanarc

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hive-190212 · @priyanarc · May 22 '20

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I am learning to live...

When I was a kid, I had no idea about life in fact it was obvious that my world was limited, my thoughts were limited. My world was like a fairy tale, full of curiosity, and wonders. Most of the question answers I got from my parents, I enjoyed and lived my childhood holding their hands and saw the world through their eyes. They showed me the beauty of the world, where colorful butterflies were sucking/ drinking honey from flowers, where a fairy tale princess was singing and roaming into her own garden... 

I was happy, every day was new for me because I was just started seeing the whole world. Beautiful people, love from parents, going out, seeing the blue sky, and the moon. 

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***I remember my dad used to take me to the rooftop to show me the moon and stars. One day I asked him, why the stars are so shiny and why moon is only one and the stars are many. He told me that, when anyone dies, they become stars, he also mentioned that my grandfather is a star now and watching us. I believed him and asked him which one is my grandfather? He told me the big star which is shinier and looking at us. Then again I asked him, will you be star also one day... He was silent and smiled...***

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> *“In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.”*
― ***Robert Frost***

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My entire life journey was dramatic, full of emotions. My childhood was mixed, I have got enormous love from my mother but on the other hand, I was deprived of the love of a grandmother, my dad's mother. I am her first grandchild moreover a girl where she expected a boy from my mother. Her wish was her first grandchild would be a boy not a girl. But I still respect her as an elder. Now you can ask me, how I came to know about this, I had no idea about discrimination when I was 5-6 years old so obviously it took me a long time to understand. I saw my mother, her emotion, her sadness after all she was unable to fulfill her mother-in-law's wish...


You must be thinking from which world I belong, from which society I came from, well it doesn't matter anymore because I am a full-grown woman now and I am learning to live my life every single day...

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[![sparkler677774_1920.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/priyanarc/cwGGeGiy-sparkler-677774_1920.jpg)](https://pixabay.com/it/photos/sparkler-azienda-mani-677774/)

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Many people don't like to share or read personal stories but I feel I should share my stories as an example. I write to people so that they can learn something from me. Many people think I am selfish but I am not, I just limited myself to being expressive. I lived for others also, I gave priorities but unfortunately in the wrong place. 10 years ago I made a mistake, I lived for others, I gave them priorities more than me which was wrong completely, I chose a wrong person for this. I mistake and after 10 years I don't regret or feel guilty anymore. 

People say my psychology has completely destroyed where I say I have just learned how to live for myself. I get hate every single day, especially hate words from people. Do you think those don't affect me? It affects a lot but I keep silent. 

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>*“It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.”*
― ***Andre Gide, Autumn Leaves***

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Life is not easy, everyone's problem, way of living life is different. I know many people are in the worst situations, some lost their dearest one, some living with regrets, some dealing with everyday life. But my point is, nobody gonna understand my situations just like I will not understand other's situations until I face that in person. So, what is the solution exactly?

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**According to my perspective, the solution is to lead your life the way you want to be... It's up to you, to be honest...**

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> <center>*“Who are you to judge the life I live?
I know I'm not perfect
-and I don't live to be-
but before you start pointing fingers...
make sure your hands are clean!”*
― ***Bob Marley***</center>

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## Love

### Priyan...

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***"I am @priyanarc.... An architect, a dreamer, and a passionate writer who loves to write about life. I try to present my own perspective and experiences. Please leave your feedback and criticism because it's the only way I can know and reach your mind and thought easily..."***

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Don't forget to subscribe to my channel...
You can find me on [Twitter](https://twitter.com/een_pri)

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@ckole · May 23 '20

Like seriously, it always pinch and hit me hard when I see people clamour over what they cannot control. If gender could be selected, she should have chosen one for your mum and not allow you to surface in the first place. 

The old ways of life and the belief of the elders is somehow annoying. Your mum has no fault in this. If your grandma wanna blame anyone here, it should be her son (your dad) and not either of you. If the man had donated Y chromosome during fertilization, you would come as a male child. Women's biological system cannot determine ghe sex of a child. Women only have the X chromosome. It is the man that has both X and Y. 

X is female, while Y is male. So the sex of a child depends on which is released by the man during egg fertilization. 

I think some people need to be educated on this. A lot of people have suffered because of this silly mindset. I was touched.

👍 priyanarc

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@jlufer · May 22 '20

Hello dear friend @priyanarc good day
What a beautiful childhood you have had, how good you terrify the beautiful memories.

I'm not surprised about your grandmother, it was like that here too, the first child in the family had to be a man, old things and beliefs, they didn't realize the discrimination and the effect it has on children, or maybe they knew it and they prepared us for a cruel reality.

In my case I love to read and share life stories, that's how
We know the people who share a large part of our lives.

It is true what you say, many times we are hated for being sincere and direct, but that's the way it is and that's the way it should be.

Life is very complicated and we are never fully prepared to face the things that arise, but what would be of life without the shocks and emossions of solving it on the fly.

How beautiful is the stage of childhood, although my experience as a man was different, I have lived the optics of women thanks to the growth of my sister and my daughter. and it is as you mention it.

My parents had the same response to my question about the stars, I loved the nights of seeing stars, much more when we saw some fleeting. and we made a wish.

Mine was always, that my parents were never stars.

Thank you very much for sharing and letting us know another little piece of you

I wish you a wonderful weekend

👍 priyanarc

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@priyanarc · May 22 '20

To be honest I feel good whenever I recall some beautiful memories of my life, they are not so important for others but they are important for me to understand how my life has been changed. Yes, our life is complicated and completely different from others. I still feel that maybe my mother is now that big shiny star, watching me every day. I know the reality but it is not bad to live in fantasy imaginary world especially with whom you love most. If I feel happy to think that my mother is a star then why not...

Thanks man for sharing your thoughts with me, highly appreciate it...

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@jlufer · May 22 '20

The grateful I am, the topics you touch daily make me reflect, also, seeing what you do is very useful to me
I wish you an excellent night dear friend @priyanarc

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