Suppose, you are sitting on a bench, nobody is around, everything is quiet, only you can hear chirping and chattering of birds, the cool breeze is blowing and you are hearing whispers of the wind, How are you gonna feel? 

What will be the first thing which will come into your mind?

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Basically, what I do is to take a sit first with a cup of 20 UAH latte and start smoking...If, I said if there is one, two people walking in front of me, my observation start. Otherwise, I start watching trees and birds...

Oh, I forgot to mention, music is always with me...

By the way, after 10 minutes, I start thinking, till then my coffee becomes almost cold coffee. Well, I don't mind drinking cold coffee...

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This entire scenario happened with me several times. If there are people I start watching them, if not I start observing trees and birds, sometimes count cars. Because, maximum time I go out to relax my mind, to divert myself so that I can come with a fresh mind. Basically, this is my way to release my stress.

However, it doesn't mean that I don't think anything, yes I think but in a positive way. Because if you are surrounded by negative energy you always need to find positive vibes to make yourself feel good.

**What the heck I am writing....**

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I have pains, a lot of pain which I try to hide, try to forget but some I can't. Some scars are unforgettable, they just leave slight pain sometimes, like a poisonous ant bite. You can tolerate the pain but it hurts.

I try to pretend sometimes because the world is still not ready to accept my dark sides, they always want to see shiny bright days. I guess quite a few people are able to accept the darkness. I can change myself but I can't change my skin, my blood. I can change outlook but I can't change my soul, it's still burning.

**By the way, I like to watch the color of blood knowing it's red, but I like to watch my own blood color...**

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If you are different, it's so hard for people to accept you. It doesn't mean if you agree with me or not, but yes if you are different, you should have to be ready to consume accusations and they will provoke you every single day. 

Some will say, you are arrogant, some will say you are too modern, some will say you are mentally a normal person... So many things ...Sadly I can't remember all...

These are all never-ending drama but yes, of course, I am happy that I left my 30% life behind, or maybe 40%... 

**But at least I did because it's better to replace a crack vase rather than trying to glue it to make it look like before...**

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