https://youtu.be/EA2gddvCt9o?si=IxnZW4-C-Wm7df5v Quite a deep one here. I don't hold back. Well, I'm not known for that anyway. I like to think of myself as a realist, and I did really hate myself a lot. That was until I learned strategies to cope with that. Eventually, I started to really like myself. What do you guys think?
author | raymondspeaks |
---|---|
permlink | why-i-hated-myself |
category | hive-189872 |
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created | 2023-10-29 02:09:06 |
last_update | 2023-10-29 02:09:06 |
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neoxian | 0 | 6,135,000,964,318 | 30% | ||
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sazbird | 0 | 623,035,423 | 5% | ||
wisbeech | 0 | 494,871,185 | 5% | ||
steevc | 0 | 143,866,535,046 | 5% | ||
brains | 0 | 2,599,072,893 | 50% | ||
nonameslefttouse | 0 | 3,003,537,673,603 | 100% | ||
edb | 0 | 1,070,336,121 | 1.25% | ||
denmarkguy | 0 | 58,438,346,311 | 50% | ||
dickturpin | 0 | 16,035,580,746 | 25% | ||
underground | 0 | 27,961,803,674 | 100% | ||
enginewitty | 0 | 50,342,416,943 | 100% | ||
kennyroy | 0 | 1,825,724,250 | 32% | ||
ecoinstant | 0 | 249,280,697,908 | 100% | ||
cryptoknight12 | 0 | 30,388,470,895 | 100% | ||
arrliinn | 0 | 48,829,047,421 | 32% | ||
chinito | 0 | 1,035,661,882 | 19% | ||
joeyarnoldvn | 0 | 579,666,893 | 1.76% | ||
diabolika | 0 | 34,313,411,616 | 100% | ||
akomoajong | 0 | 906,680,913 | 30% | ||
pixelfan | 0 | 49,206,250,264 | 6.25% | ||
steps | 0 | 143,387,722,897 | 29% | ||
guurg | 0 | 777,899,688 | 21% | ||
killerwhale | 0 | 112,855,186,283 | 100% | ||
rumplestiltskin | 0 | 30,291,524,071 | 100% | ||
calatorulmiop | 0 | 14,508,908,667 | 10% | ||
mawit07 | 0 | 49,824,994,915 | 18% | ||
silversaver888 | 0 | 184,397,050,206 | 52.1% | ||
silvergoldbotty | 0 | 87,643,023,134 | 100% | ||
divinekids | 0 | 5,522,377,378 | 32% | ||
steemitcomics | 0 | 1,567,724,646 | 100% | ||
steemseph | 0 | 13,871,250,850 | 10% | ||
dandays | 0 | 80,553,182,341 | 5% | ||
anomallies | 0 | 10,225,410,392 | 100% | ||
flamo | 0 | 1,645,931,665 | 50% | ||
joedukeg | 0 | 1,304,855,710 | 25% | ||
citizensmith | 0 | 835,484,660 | 5% | ||
jozefkrichards | 0 | 4,993,892,878 | 50% | ||
iamthegray | 0 | 554,344,065 | 100% | ||
kernelillo | 0 | 26,966,025,576 | 50% | ||
b00m | 0 | 1,038,642,729 | 5% | ||
abmakko | 0 | 1,972,273,768 | 15% | ||
jongolson | 0 | 566,551,543,734 | 50% | ||
jude.villarta | 0 | 435,005,646 | 10% | ||
mountainjewel | 0 | 4,401,641,587 | 5% | ||
hetty-rowan | 0 | 80,631,192,902 | 50% | ||
itwithsm | 0 | 2,315,313,191 | 15% | ||
amjadsharif | 0 | 870,644,067 | 15% | ||
dynamicrypto | 0 | 38,991,254,394 | 12.5% | ||
newageinv | 0 | 125,313,488,786 | 25% | ||
powerpaul | 0 | 13,757,715,487 | 100% | ||
jlordc | 0 | 842,008,258 | 100% | ||
organicgardener | 0 | 938,527,812 | 37.5% | ||
jazzhero | 0 | 6,197,116,778 | 7.5% | ||
psyborg | 0 | 11,757,895,483 | 100% | ||
antdroid | 0 | 12,079,725,019 | 100% | ||
hazem91 | 0 | 9,020,737,889 | 40% | ||
ericburgoyne | 0 | 29,197,122,408 | 50% | ||
udezee | 0 | 7,201,226,106 | 100% | ||
anikys3reasure | 0 | 5,157,998,739 | 100% | ||
katrina-ariel | 0 | 48,250,322,615 | 100% | ||
bozz | 0 | 279,594,953,418 | 19% | ||
russellstockley | 0 | 35,219,326,519 | 30% | ||
photomoto | 0 | 912,094,962 | 100% | ||
simplymike | 0 | 92,926,038,259 | 75% | ||
adamada | 0 | 37,069,106,505 | 10% | ||
melbourneswest | 0 | 11,677,910,901 | 10% | ||
quochuy | 0 | 358,841,039,511 | 6.13% | ||
xawi | 0 | 16,121,922,435 | 30% | ||
monchhichi23 | 0 | 12,591,704,020 | 100% | ||
tronsformer | 0 | 1,390,645,448 | 40% | ||
meins0815 | 0 | 6,861,950,149 | 23% | ||
cryptomaniacsgr | 0 | 90,390,976,649 | 50% | ||
ifeoluwa88 | 0 | 17,421,736,694 | 30% | ||
crimo | 0 | 641,881,754 | 11.5% | ||
meher04 | 0 | 1,340,559,108 | 30% | ||
enforcer48 | 0 | 241,329,795,566 | 20% | ||
liable | 0 | 1,803,189,529 | 40% | ||
pinas | 0 | 484,170,233 | 50% | ||
sgbonus | 0 | 41,229,344,327 | 15% | ||
ajongcrypto | 0 | 854,323,368 | 30% | ||
steemulant | 0 | 91,678,471 | 6.13% | ||
lifeskills-tv | 0 | 3,005,630,274 | 15% | ||
bestofph | 0 | 1,200,006,004 | 10% | ||
teamvn | 0 | 7,484,202,803 | 6.13% | ||
goblinknackers | 0 | 87,053,102,318 | 8% | ||
smartvote | 0 | 77,415,011,708 | 3.4% | ||
definethedollar | 0 | 944,602,475,347 | 50% | ||
thesummoner | 0 | 11,525,435,267 | 100% | ||
stmctrail | 0 | 738,966,762 | 100% | ||
lunamoon | 0 | 14,576,980,700 | 100% | ||
khaldeesi | 0 | 14,280,759,595 | 100% | ||
freyamber | 0 | 14,910,377,672 | 100% | ||
pocketjs | 0 | 83,340,439 | 6.13% | ||
sanjeev021 | 0 | 7,881,535,403 | 3% | ||
chain.games | 0 | 23,114,967,835 | 100% | ||
cwow2 | 0 | 132,274,321,275 | 28.5% | ||
r-e-d | 0 | 7,927,964,463 | 100% | ||
slothlydoesit | 0 | 12,023,675,613 | 12.5% | ||
noekie | 0 | 493,814,186 | 37.5% | ||
battlemaster | 0 | 45,140,067,562 | 37.5% | ||
steemtelly | 0 | 1,987,916,305 | 6.13% | ||
lord-of-the-d | 0 | 11,260,695,410 | 100% | ||
naturalkiller | 0 | 537,230,552 | 37.5% | ||
monsterdoom | 0 | 956,953,431 | 37.5% | ||
steemforsteem | 0 | 1,124,358,166 | 100% | ||
toonuts | 0 | 2,476,781,089 | 100% | ||
twonuts | 0 | 2,519,550,397 | 100% | ||
jlordz | 0 | 2,739,123,203 | 100% | ||
wenchebakken | 0 | 42,412,046,679 | 50% | ||
letlove | 0 | 3,074,859,437 | 100% | ||
allied-mafia | 0 | 8,667,390,744 | 100% | ||
tenkminnows | 0 | 191,308,510,227 | 50% | ||
solairitas | 0 | 237,893,428,839 | 50% | ||
steemforschool | 0 | 1,117,930,393 | 100% | ||
steemforschools | 0 | 1,385,345,941 | 100% | ||
itwasme | 0 | 1,625,239,993 | 100% | ||
matildamoment | 0 | 80,570,523,223 | 50% | ||
leighscotford | 0 | 9,785,482,301 | 12.5% | ||
x40l1n | 0 | 98,510,317,386 | 100% | ||
theblooded | 0 | 1,146,734,241 | 100% | ||
blooded | 0 | 1,146,809,990 | 100% | ||
theclan | 0 | 2,192,660,676 | 100% | ||
angeltree | 0 | 2,214,105,121 | 100% | ||
christmasclub | 0 | 2,449,095,987 | 100% | ||
akomoajong1 | 0 | 956,678,547 | 30% | ||
class101 | 0 | 4,333,378,721 | 100% | ||
publicview | 0 | 24,437,482,620 | 100% | ||
opidia | 0 | 7,693,645,285 | 100% | ||
elianaicgomes | 0 | 1,019,078,178 | 5% | ||
olaexcel-ag | 0 | 584,517,076 | 100% | ||
marriakjozhegp | 0 | 1,168,627,129 | 30% | ||
therealyme | 0 | 1,357,285,697 | 5% | ||
bozz.sports | 0 | 3,736,428,122 | 4% | ||
whoreson | 0 | 6,445,211,729 | 100% | ||
birthdaywishes | 0 | 1,172,987,626 | 100% | ||
youdo | 0 | 2,629,272,482 | 100% | ||
sharkthelion | 0 | 201,328,792 | 25% | ||
rumors | 0 | 2,670,597,980 | 40% | ||
bi0digital | 0 | 11,016,544,345 | 100% | ||
wittys.angels | 0 | 1,192,090,217 | 100% | ||
wittysangels | 0 | 1,192,098,895 | 100% | ||
solairibot | 0 | 39,818,709,670 | 50% | ||
groove-logic | 0 | 3,302,541,792 | 50% | ||
dpend.active | 0 | 3,851,678,148 | 10% | ||
politicalhive | 0 | 508,447,283 | 100% | ||
mami.sheh7 | 0 | 842,628,844 | 15% | ||
sketching | 0 | 6,450,846,534 | 50% | ||
logicforce | 0 | 915,205,225 | 18% | ||
dannewton | 0 | 94,336,129,665 | 25% | ||
newigennity | 0 | 142,992,679,847 | 100% | ||
quinnertronics | 0 | 69,275,535,563 | 33% | ||
earthsea | 0 | 9,611,747,952 | 50% | ||
stickupboys | 0 | 20,438,638,700 | 100% | ||
brofund-ag | 0 | 930,439,473 | 30% | ||
angiel | 0 | 29,337,748,976 | 100% | ||
sassafrass | 0 | 4,951,784,237 | 100% | ||
dwixer | 0 | 4,785,206,768 | 100% | ||
adhammer | 0 | 3,667,646,220 | 100% | ||
zaddyboy | 0 | 506,430,144 | 3.75% | ||
bellelynn | 0 | 11,941,861,442 | 100% | ||
he-index | 0 | 3,056,004,385 | 10% | ||
dr460n3y3 | 0 | 2,334,993,045 | 100% | ||
b34w0lf | 0 | 3,584,649,364 | 100% | ||
solymi | 0 | 1,900,521,368,295 | 100% | ||
cbridges573 | 0 | 2,754,269,381 | 15% | ||
selfhelp4trolls | 0 | 822,302,234,756 | 100% | ||
lufg | 0 | 1,005,061,153 | 25% | ||
nyxlabs | 0 | 7,774,596,277 | 25% | ||
robvector | 0 | 66,714,663,568 | 50% | ||
mythix | 0 | 38,647,744,578 | 50% | ||
draygyn | 0 | 994,452,677 | 12.5% | ||
brofi | 0 | 7,877,584,326,344 | 75% | ||
iviaxpow3r | 0 | 1,510,437,320 | 12.5% | ||
timmy-turnip | 0 | 6,395,092,816 | 50% | ||
horstman5 | 0 | 750,356,480 | 25% | ||
abh12345.cine | 0 | 478,860,018 | 100% | ||
jim-crypto | 0 | 2,847,769,584 | 25% | ||
brofund-witness | 0 | 20,560,804,984 | 75% | ||
mythix.market | 0 | 33,739,966,316 | 50% | ||
stickupmusic | 0 | 1,897,673,711 | 100% | ||
tamdike | 0 | 478,101,431 | 100% | ||
bellou61 | 0 | 1,694,257,732 | 100% | ||
memesupport | 0 | 518,729,700 | 30% | ||
bulldog1205 | 0 | 22,893,182,917 | 25% | ||
pizzadalek | 0 | 76,982,687,057 | 50% | ||
jacksonizer | 0 | 14,019,045,885 | 50% | ||
mythix.token | 0 | 21,076,155,143 | 50% | ||
cryptoccshow | 0 | 3,305,665,977 | 25% | ||
iamgem005 | 0 | 1,213,813,987 | 12.5% | ||
masterzarlyn28 | 0 | 731,221,788 | 25% | ||
seattlea | 0 | 7,551,961,731 | 25% | ||
mochilub | 0 | 1,583,198,794 | 12.5% | ||
onewolfe | 0 | 998,519,115 | 50% | ||
tub3r0 | 0 | 954,220,353 | 37.5% | ||
cmmndrbawang | 0 | 4,809,477,419 | 100% | ||
xykorlz | 0 | 2,813,521,216 | 25% | ||
mxm0unite | 0 | 1,332,465,422 | 50% | ||
njker | 0 | 687,759,599 | 25% | ||
kuwago | 0 | 512,770,808 | 25% | ||
ingi1976 | 0 | 4,765,013,068 | 6.25% | ||
kraaaaa | 0 | 3,280,297,509 | 12.5% | ||
beffeater | 0 | 2,400,828,993 | 25% | ||
anonymous02 | 0 | 5,772,552,939 | 45% | ||
stickupcash | 0 | 675,009,821 | 100% | ||
waivio.curator | 0 | 1,805,956,118 | 3.34% | ||
uncorked-reality | 0 | 1,227,356,023 | 25% | ||
svanbo | 0 | 2,769,447,745 | 2.5% | ||
rakhmen | 0 | 1,289,510,588 | 50% | ||
queenstarr | 0 | 7,490,067,956 | 30% | ||
thgaming | 0 | 6,667,998,101 | 25% | ||
stickupcurator | 0 | 4,988,325,232,111 | 100% | ||
crypt0gnome | 0 | 54,196,468,517 | 2.5% | ||
blocktunes | 0 | 23,005,739,571 | 50% | ||
hivepakistan | 0 | 588,696,218,691 | 30% | ||
wannatrailwithme | 0 | 1,188,905,897 | 25% | ||
nicklewis | 0 | 15,754,486,840 | 25% | ||
thorlock | 0 | 794,714,815 | 12.5% | ||
bfciv | 0 | 984,005,472 | 37.5% | ||
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shawnnft | 0 | 1,881,349,407 | 3% | ||
dragonmk47 | 0 | 3,324,561,852 | 3% | ||
hurtlocker | 0 | 289,717,251,232 | 100% | ||
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olujay | 0 | 28,085,139,053 | 30% | ||
cimmeron | 0 | 1,892,354,023 | 12.5% | ||
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cryptocompany | 0 | 891,141,592,160 | 100% | ||
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splinterwhale | 0 | 1,079,256,006 | 12.5% | ||
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Your dad sounds like a dick. You are awesome for being a decent guy despite having that kind of influence. I’ve been digging into these old memories from childhood to heal too. Nice to finally see your face. Subscribed 😉
author | selfhelp4trolls |
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permlink | re-raymondspeaks-20231029t131717585z |
category | hive-189872 |
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I'd say I was quite a dickead pre-26 years old. I was trying to be a nice person but in reality I was manipulative and sneaky. Now I'm just nice :) - I did a lot of healing through recognising my mum and dads bullshit and the effect it had on me. Would recommend it :)
author | raymondspeaks |
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A lot of people are sneaky and manipulative before they heal...i get it!<div><a href="https://engage.hivechain.app"></a></div>
author | selfhelp4trolls |
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Getting to know you better, @raymondspeaks ! !LUV
author | silversaver888 |
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category | hive-189872 |
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created | 2023-10-29 02:41:54 |
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Thank you!
author | raymondspeaks |
---|---|
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