Honestly, this is something that has plagued me for as long as i can remember. Being a loner and introvert all in one, i have always struggled to find the balance between genuinely loving my company and needing ti love my company because there is no other option. It is honestly a vicious cycle of finding peace and calm being alone and then wondering why i don't have friends to hang with and all of that in the middle of the night. I am learning alot from your journey i must confess. Even if i dont get to do it exactly like you, i can definitely feel the changes and i am proud.

That is awesome that you are finding the time and the energy to love yourself again.  I think we all need a little bit of that.  It would probably be a better world if we could learn to do that.  I think I would be shocked to see a bear, but I don't think I would be sacred.  I'd like to think I am braver than that anyway.

Wonderful way of sharing thoughts and experiences. As a recently discovered introvert (while I embody an extrovert well, it really needs to flow for it not to drain me), and a nomad and traveler with my husband, it does get lonely. I find questioning certain beliefs and practices, following a life's dream to contribute and be of service, makes people uncomfortable. Especially people who (maybe, think) know you so well (ie parents, or close friends) and who miss (a version of) you. When we happen to speak with people and the conversations flow, with no need to explain, with no need to defend choices and so on....oh wow, what a rush. And after two years I tell you it does not (or maybe we haven't found our community yet) get easier. Still very much worth the while. And I'm sure the right soul will make their way to you so you can create more of these memories together.

Electronic-terrorism, voice to skull and neuro monitoring on Hive and Steem. You can ignore this, but your going to wish you didnt soon. This is happening whether you believe it or not. https://ecency.com/fyrstikken/@fairandbalanced/i-am-the-only-motherfucker-on-the-internet-pointing-to-a-direct-source-for-voice-to-skull-electronic-terrorism

I think it is a nice choice to find a place in the mountains. I share the same sentiments of finding peace and tranquility with your own solitude. Not meant people enjoy being with themselves and I find that rather surprising. One of these days, I could see myself in a small hut by the sea with a pet dog. That would be heaven.

With regard to your father's point of view, my family had the same mindset - of this pandemic being a scam initiated by governments. They soon changed their perspective when it became apparent that people were dying everyday

Hahaha. I think you get along better with bears and strangers, than with your dad! And as for women, how nice that you find some women of this "world" attractive, with whom you find it interesting to chat. I agree that you should avoid places where you don't feel good, even if this is your parents' house. Until now, as you have said, you have not felt alone, I do not see why you cannot prolong this state of encounter with yourself. Nice day and a big hug, @rok-sivante!