I often feel similar to you, knowing that I can have positive affects on so many people. And then also feeling responsible for all the people that I don't reach, but could if I just put out a little more effort. Yet therein lies the problem, as this road leads down making myself God, as if all the world depended on me.

I'm actually one that feels *very* responsible for how others are affected by me, to the point of neurosis. And I can see myself without compassion, as if I should be able to do anything and everything. 

I think you're right on with the conclusion you came to in your last paragraph:

>Sometimes we can't know. Only do to the best of our ability for the time being, further cultivating and exercising the discernment and wisdom to respond as most appropriate to best serve each individual's needs in the moment as they are presented to us.

Isn't that all we can do? Give it our best and learn from both our successes and failures? It's fun to learn from your success, but I think we learn even more from our failure.

I admire how much you care for others, the way you can empathize with people in need. This is a strength, but also know you are finite and can only give so much.

I'll leave you with the first two Steps from Alcoholics Anonymous, as even though you aren't an alcoholic, the principles are powerful and applicable here:
* We admitted that we were powerless - that our lives had become unmanageable.
* We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

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but please, don't forget that we always see a picture  through _our own eyes_

Sometimes it can be really difficult to know weather to step in or to stand back.  Sometimes the attempt to help just makes thing worse for the person.  Sometimes you really want to help, but you are unable to do so, for whatever reason.  2 years ago, a friend of mine jumped off a bridge to her death, and there was nothing I could have ever done for her that would have changed that outcome.  Sometimes, it just isn't possible to help someone.

Intriguing! Whatever can it be?

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thank you for sharing

I can see how this would weigh on you.  It's hard to not want to help people who are suffering and I think most everyone suffers one way or another.  I think we do what we can while also taking care of ourselves.  Whether you're a "hippie dippie self righteous cunt" or you have to live with neurofibromatosis we're all just doing our best with what we got to seek a happy balance in life.  As an outsider trying to help another, I think the philosophy about taking care of yourself first and foremost is the key.  Help when you can as much as you can but don't cross over into a place where it's now hurting you.  It's much easier to feel good about that when you know there are plenty of others out there to take over when you're spent.  But we don't work that way in this world quite yet.

Wow this is very well written. May they find some inspiration soon! My philosophy is to continue to better myself each day. Breathing and accepting who you are is a major step. Being goal driven is key. Things don't happen overnight. Change takes time. Godspeed

my mere mortal words are just dust ...but I can totally relate to what you are expressing.

Lead by example, mental illness is the natural outcome of living in a world that does not cherish natural law. It is equal to enjoying a spring day within a dark room, we are where we find aurselves, there could be others in the same room, but anytime anyone finds the door and cracks it open, everyone shreeks from light sensitivity. Until one day someone gets tired of enjoying this spring day within this darkroom and knocks the door off the god dam hidges with a swift kick! Then everyone freaks out covering their eyes thinking their little world has ended, blinded and affraid they wait for the end. But behold, five minutes later, their eyes adjust to the light, a few of the bold even venture out of the room to perceive for the first time, a sunny beautiful verdant spring day. Then when they have all emerged into this new light, they speak of what a great idea it was to break the door and that they wish it would have been done sooner so as to not have spent so much time in their previous darkness. We all find comfort in darkness, as what is tried and found true, soothes insecurity. However one candle, will illuminate an entire room, just as aur sun provides many spring days throughout aur lives. Wait for when another's hand is open, then give them a candle, light it with yours so they will move on and do the same. Until then break the hinges off every fucking door ye find, for there is no mind, no time and no fear. May all beings find their awn true light. The law of ignorance states, those who choose to not awaken will not no matter what transpires, but we each have the opportunity to find true light within thee darknes of self and when that final door falls, we all turn and brave the darkness again to help others out.

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Deep reflections there @rok-sivante, just note that the passion you have on the inside to see the project succeed is there for a reason -To give answers to questions that both you and the people who it would help have. You can't help everyone, who says you should? But keep at it, so at least that technology would help SOMEONE. Once that is achieved, then you can be assured that you've made a mark, one that many after you will live to remember.

Thanks @rok-sivante for sharing with us. I will ask the Lord to bless the journey which I undertake, that it may profit the health of my soul and body.

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Oddly enough, I stumbled through a similar incident today.

Following a trail of post replies and comments I came across someones blog whose photos I found to evoke a very powerful and intense feeling of loneliness and isolation.

I debated whether or not to intrude and ended up saying, "I don't know how to say this without it sounding contrived or weird. But, I love you as a human being."

I thought at the very least, some stranger somewhere on the other side of the planet gives a shit & maybe that helps.

Then I felt weird.

It's not something I'd normally do, ordinarily I'd just make a note to myself that, she's got some serious issues and go about my business.

I'm still trying to figure out, well, literally how to feel about it.

May I ask what project you are working on?

The story you have written of here definitely resonates with me. Something I have noticed is people need to WANT to be helped, and truly do within their core.  All we can assume responsibility is for ourselves, and make sure our contributions to this world are of constructive value rather than destructive.

Through much suffering (even to the point of breaking) we as humans can grow exponentially. At the end, we are all on this journey through this particular life for whatever purpose it may be and as long as we follow our intuition and hearts, we'll remain on the right track.

Best wishes with your project!

Oh, & nice avatar :)

Beautiful photos ^_^ the art here is amazing