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> *Failure is an opportunity to start again with more intelligence - Henri Ford*

**3 years that I haven't published anything on the chain. Never been on Hive and still calling it 'Steem'...** 

I was in love with Steem. Or maybe wasn't it Steem. Maybe it was its community. 

I was in love with its community. I found my people there. My tribe. People like me. Weirdo but not weirdo. People that don't fit perfectly the society. People who just want freedom, liberty and transparency. Dreamer of another world. 

Today, the Steem Community built their new identity : from Steemian they became... I guess.. Hivian. 

I have never been an Hivian. 

**I stayed far away from Steem/Hive theses last three years. I had another baby to take care of rather than dreaming of changing the world one day at a time on ~~Steem~~ Hive.**

I stayed away because of a bunch of Haters that doesn't wanted me to shine too much I didn't wanted to deal with during the most important time of my life : becoming a mom. 

But... The newly called Hivian community belongs to my heart. Since the first day I met them in real life at Lisbon during Steemfest2 (or should I rebrand it by Hivefest2 ?!) 

**So... Even if I am not blogging, not reading, not commenting, not participating on Hive, I love you.**

**And meeting few of you at the Eye Film Museum was like I had never left you.** 

So... thank you for being you, for being my Hivian and real life friend, for not forgetting me and for making me feeling still so beloved. And thank you to all the others Hivian that just 'are'. 

@gandalf and your lovely wife, I can't wait to see you next time in Montpelier. 

@walterjay, my old french friend que j'attends de pied ferme sur mon podcast prochainement. 

@detlev, my fellow Dutch speaking Belgian hivian friend, always true to himself. 

@martibis and @lizanomadsould for your energy and happiness that never leave you through the years. 

@starkerz because you always says the perfect words for me lifting up my self-esteem. 

@soyrosa for being so clever and so intuitive. 

@felixxx and the German community where I am sure I would have been beloved and truly appreciated to my own value. 

@manncpt because maybe one day we may work on eramsus + projects together. Times flies. 

@alexvan just because. 

@arcange, my fellow Belgian Hivian who teached me the role of a witness long time ago et qui permet à mon projet de 'fast-reply' de vivre, I hope so. 

@howo, another French gem who seems never stop growing. 

@roelandp for his skeptical face always i show up not being registered for the fest... In Bangkok, in Amsterdam. Where is next? 

@pharesim that I excuse for not remembering me after all theses years. 

I've seen from far away, ~~steemian~~ Hivian with who I would have loved to chat but had no chance, as @steevc, @rivalzzz, @louis88, @blocktrades for example. 

Or I would have loved to continue my discussion with @therealwolf 's wife about how to homeschooling and roadschooling with kids. 

I am sad that I haven't had the chance to meet @vcelier again in real life, I heard he was there too.. and that I really miss to read all the stories and funny faces he was use to do. 

And I would have love to meet face to face @lemouth. Thanks for people helped me to catch him... 

I have missed people like @connecteconomy, @surfermarly, @lukestokes, @wackou, @karenchen, @teamsteem, @sorin.cristescu, @samstonehill, @pnc, @hillarski and his wife,  but I am lucky enough to be in touch outside of the chain if needed. 

But also I miss @adetorrent, @abh12345, @pollux.one, @transisto, @anomadsoul, @nanzo-scoop, @yoshiko, @bubke, @mammasitta, @gringalicious... 

And all the Team Malaysia with @bitrocker2020 and his wonderful team. 

And what about the French people ? Is there still people here ? @evildido et @mr-tk devenu des french super stars of the cryptosphère et les autres ? @bambukah, @sebbbl, @kalypso56, @iptrucs, @happydaddyfr, @soushi888, @ekitcho, @cash22, ...

I loved ~~Steem~~ Hive. For a while. And forever. It has always be in my heart. 

Despite of the haters, I am grateful for what Steem has bring into my life. 

Even for the haters in fact. They teached me to be stronger. But also that my I am able to be successful when I don't even see it myself. 

**I loved to organize meetups, empower people to join ~~Steem~~ Hive, to share my knowledge with all my heart. To organize conferences. To interview people, to look after new gem on the chain and be the first to discover and present it, to blog, to produce video, to produce podcast, but also to travel and meet people from the community... Because yes, ~~Steem~~ Hive made me travel a lot. I lived for ~~Steem~~ Hive for months hoping it would be a life changer for me so I could Help to change people's life too.**

The things is that I am someone from the field. Not from the internet. I love people and I need to see, meet, talk, hugs them. I am a social animal. Connecting people. Level up them by level up me. But Without the body language, and all that goes with it, communication problems can be worse on the internet. So, for me, Real life is easier than virtual one. Haters gonna hate on the internet. But as soon they meet you, they feel you, it generally disapear. Because we are all human with our forces and weakness. 

Meeting you all at Hivefest7 made me realize that I miss you all. 

***So... If there is still a place for me on the chain, I may join you again.*** 

And if not on the chain, may we see each others next year, I may buy a ticket for the fest this time and hire a baby-sitter !

> *While no one can go back and start over, everyone can start from now and create a new ending. - Maria Robinson*

With love, 

Roxane