 You switched off faster than light but I can’t return my favor. I’ve been on for months now hoping to find you, walls down stumble over your heart (or close) find your eyes wide looking to me the way I think of you as midnight ticks in time *badump tock* a rushing *wantwant want* pace- and I did—I saw you open, I saw you wanting me with looks lips, words, fingers every part as alive as I’ve ever felt with you (the reason I want to be with you) . . .and then I saw you close because open is scary and one of us doesn’t know she’s worth the risk. That one of us is not me. ## Recent Posts * [Then there was you](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/then-there-was-you) (life) * [Relationship Goals](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/relationship-goals) (life) * [Mom on Call](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/mom-on-call-13ff44090f3d2) (life) * [Why I kept talking to the man who sexually assaulted me](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/why-i-kept-talking-to-the-man-who-sexually-assaulted-me) (life) * [Dealing with vulnerability in my place of power](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/dealing-with-vulnerability-in-my-place-of-power-c5fd14290679d) (life) * [Self- Portraits with My iPhone](https://www.steemit.com/photography/@shawnamawna/self-portraits-with-my-iphone-c43df8f235dd6) (photography) * [Asymmetry](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/asymmetry) (life) * [Coming Out](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/coming-out) (life) * [I'm not broken, I'm gay](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/i-m-not-broken-i-m-gay) (life) * [You drive me crazy](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/you-drive-me-crazy-331fee3cca0ca) (life) * [Intimate Wounds](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/intimate-wounds-83377e25658f2) (life) * [Sometimes the meds do more harm than good](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/sometimes-the-meds-do-more-harm-than-good) (life) * [Ode to Focalin](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/ode-to-focalin-0321e8bf6399c) (life) * [Teamwork makes the dream work](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/teamwork-makes-the-dream-work-9045a090616ed) (life) * [Doing my okayest: ADHD meds and wishing well for others](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/doing-my-okayest-adhd-meds-and-wishing-well-for-others) (life) * [Every now and then I have to re-meet myself](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/every-now-and-then-i-have-to-re-meet-myself) (life) * [Discovery](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/discovery-e8ecd8afe96d8) (life) * [The Evidence](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/the-evidence-e8fcab8a68127) (life) * [Pining](https://www.steemit.com/life/@shawnamawna/pining) (life)
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Thank you. My heart is eased to receive this support. <3
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Try to remember that no one escapes being abandoned at least once during life. We have all lived this, and recovered from it, and gone on to find happiness. It may take a little time.
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@resteemator is a new bot casting votes for its followers. Follow @resteemator and vote this comment to increase your chance to be voted in the future!
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I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Opening yourself up to vulnerability can be incredibly painful.
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It is, but it makes space for a new strength. I feel stronger this morning even though a big part of me wants to crawl back into my dark, comfy closet and hide.
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https://stuff.mit.edu/people/dpolicar/writing/poetry/poems/comesTheDawn.html @spozone is sending you a hug!
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That poem was exactly what I needed. Thank you, @spozone, for always being here and always being a friend. <3
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...her name was Gayle. I would have pulled my teeth out just to spend another day with her. I had never known such pain as her rejection. This too shall pass...
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This post has been selected for curation by @msp-curation by @sunravelme. It has been upvoted and will be featured in this week's <a href="https://steemit.com/mspcuration/@sunravelme/working-title-msp-creative-writing">Working Title</a> post. It will also be considered for the official @minnowsupport curation post and if selected will be resteemed from the main account. Feel free to join us on <a href="minnowpond.org">Discord</a>!
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