ASHAA Othoba NIRASHAA : Clarity by simplifylife

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hive-190212 · @simplifylife · Jul 3 '20

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ASHAA Othoba NIRASHAA : Clarity

When you’ve battled intense depression for as long as I have, you don’t have hopes. Dreams have long faded away. The calm slipped into calamity. You’re left amidst nothing, but chaos. The emotions whirlpool you like the stormy seas. Tossed around like a helpless canoe that doesn’t really believe it'll outlive the storm, but clutches on for no reason.

![woodenboatinastormysea1464973950cx5.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/simplifylife/BlOyNHbC-wooden-boat-in-a-stormy-sea-1464973950cx5.jpg)
<center>_[Source](https://www.needpix.com/photo/1433145/boat-storm-rain-wooden-day-life-dark-old-huge)_</center>
The mind goes to its "Bad Place." It shuns everything, everyone away. You search for a moment of clarity, the calm of the storm. Yes there is a subtle calmness even in the raging storm, it's quite difficult to explain where the calmness is coming from. You frantically search for that.

This is not who I used to be. I had everything _figured out_ when I graduated high school. I had all my _Plans_ in place. But then, mistakes were made. I slowly started pushing my friends away. 

Let me rephrase that. I slowly started pulling myself away from friends. Isolated myself in search of clarity, peace of mind. And after all these years, I'm still in the dark, searching for my peace of mind.

If I didn't become a doctor, I'm pretty sure I'd make a Hollywood class actor! You should see the way I fake a smile day after day, making it as real as humanly possible. No one sees the despair through the Facade, how I clutch on to just a single day at a time.

Yes, I know, I know. We as doctors tell our patients to look to the bright side, think positively, everything will be alright and countless other bullshit! But once you've stepped into these shoes of mental disruption yourself, you know it's a luxury to be focusing on hopes and dreams. I can only hope for some clarity, a little peace of mind. Is that too much to ask for?
***
This post is an entry to the [BDCommunity Writing Contest, Week 4.](https://peakd.com/hive-190212/@bdcommunity/bdcommunity-writing-contest-week-4)
***
# <center>BDCommunity Witness</center>

<center>@zaku and @reazuliqbal has been the mind and soul behind the BDVoter project and many of you have received some great support for good content from BDV.  The bros have been working tirelessly to make onboarding new users onto the HIVE platform by curating from all over the platform! And now they have set up the [BDCommunity Witness.](https://hive.blog/witness-category/@bdcommunity/announcing-bdcommunity-hive-witness)</center>

<center>https://images.hive.blog/640x0/https://images.hive.blog/DQmX4ANaTxUjWi5k6NmBD7uCk9y3haQ294z8f5gXDGwxpa4/bdc-witness.png</center>

<center>I feel proud that I have been appointed as an ambassador for the BDCommunity!</center> 

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<center>The BDC has also been collecting donations for helping the poor people of Bangladesh in this time of crisis. Do check out the post [Here](https://peakd.com/hive-190212/@bdcommunity/we-are-accepting-donations-for-the-fifth-round) and donate STEEM/SBD/HIVE/HBD to @bdcommunity</center>

<center>That's all from me for now!</center>

<center>![Image-1589.png](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmToKfGjfVDwR8ZxUw6ofrkdvNyWr5oPdfwExMaSG4fRpD/Image-1589.png)</center>

<center>Until Next Time!</center>

<center> Peace!</center>

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@creativemary · Jul 3 '20

Those who manage to come out of depression are much stronger than the average people. I never met a successful amazing person with an easy lifestory. It all comes with a price

👍 simplifylife, nirupom.azad

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@simplifylife · Jul 3 '20

What you just said, I've trying to hang on to that, hoping it'll all be worth it in the end. It takes absolutely everything, mentally, to get past every single day!

👍 nirupom.azad

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@creativemary · Jul 4 '20

Yes I agree. Stay strong!

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@hivebuzz · Jul 6 '20

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@simplifylife · Jul 3 '20

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