It's within you It's your mind and your health It's all that you've done It's what's under your belt All that you've felt All you will feel It is what MAKES you It is the real deal  Today I just wanted to say that I feel really grateful for what has been coming my way. I'm writing here more than I ever had and it turns out that I'm not that bad. Consistency is a thing I have managed to implement more in my life and it's undoing the damage. The damage done by not being here for almost three months (what felt like a year). I know I'm not perfect - nowhere near, that's why I'm learning and facing my fears. Every day, every single day, I'm talking to myself and it's like an endless run. So I thought - why not talk here, where some can relate? Why not gain some STEEM and create my own fate? <center></center> ***What I really wanted to say was that you can do it too! It's just that you have to start doing it and facing the fear of the unknown. Fear of failing. It's normal and it's possible you will fail but you have to get up more times than you fall! It's in you, it's in us all!*** https://media.giphy.com/media/o6Tkep8B99ydG/giphy.gif *The end for today. Will come back tomorrow when it's again today.* [image by StockSnap on Pixabay](https://pixabay.com/photos/people-guy-girl-beer-chain-2625338/) [gif from Giphy](https://giphy.com/gifs/perfectloops-joy-division-o6Tkep8B99ydG) <center></center>
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