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vulnerability · @steemed-open · (edited)
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steemed-open
I am fascinated by humans and obsessed with waking up, or in other words 👉🏽 seeing through my own bullshit to the truth. My bio page lists my interests as “yoga, psychology, philosophy, sexuality, and relationships...”, which are all wonderful pursuits, but really they’re just different tools or techniques towards *awakening*.

My name here on Steemit was chosen with intention.  For decades I faked being happy and struggled to mask and hide intense inner angst and depression. Holding my tongue and my feelings inside for so long created enough heat, steam and pressure in my psyche that the former me finally metaphorically burst or woke up a few years back, revealing a more *authentic me* who now openly shares herself. 

Get it? @steemed-open ... 😉

In essence this page is both a practice and a celebration of me being open, honest, real, and surrendering the fight to remain cloaked, or hidden by any facade. I share my struggles, my gloriousness, and my mundane stuff in between on my path to waking up with as much honest and objectivity as I can muster. 

Brené Brown, an expert on vulnerability, in exhaustively researching this emotion found:
>the answer that appeared over and over in all of our efforts to better understand vulnerability? Naked. Vulnerability is like being naked onstage and hoping for applause rather than laughter. It’s being naked when everyone else is fully clothed...

That’s me

![C0AC14EF-A458-454E-BF54-37DE957E593A.jpeg](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmXNCGx2GxqfsMwAT1MyW2xefZW7CEKWaJEiBAAXaZpBSu/C0AC14EF-A458-454E-BF54-37DE957E593A.jpeg)

This page is my practice of being vulnerable. Standing before you often half naked, either physically, mentally or emotionally, and learning to breathe through that discomfort and just...*be* vs my old ways of run and hide.

I think every human has this same desire somewhere inside. To be vulnerable, or safely exposed, untangled from their mental games, defragmented, fully revealed, seen in whole and yet still loved and accepted.
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@acesontop ·
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Being vulnerable is specific to women, and the desire to be that way, but beeing naked and open on lifes stage filled with our minds created public waiting for aplauses is a desire beyond gendre, social status, age, sex...anything. After all we are born naked and in the most important moments of our lives we are naked, body and soul. The clothes that we wear on exterior are the veils that we have on interior.

Just an opinion...
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@steemed-open · 
Truth, brother. 

>the clothes that we wear on the exterior are the veils that we have on the interior

👆🏼What an awesome statement !
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@matkodurko · 
I actually like more
<blockquote>in the most important moments of our lives we are naked</blockquote>

<b>Great read from both of you!</b>
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@wakkylyon · 
The bestest way to explain it! Thanks bud.
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@ambdavid · 
Hello dear @steemed-open today is my sister's birthday.  She's really a strong woman indeed. 


Please visit my birthday Post for her on my blog 

https://steemit.com/life/@ambdavid/hurrah-it-s-my-sister-s-birthday

Women are strong, special and Sweet
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@bigblueleadsled · 
I applaud your openness, and how you sexually express yourself. I would love to engage in a sexually based post such as this one. I love sex.....there are things I would love to explore, but my wife is not as willing, I think. I'm not sure how to approach her with my ideas.
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@steemed-open · 
Thank you. I appreciate your support. 

As for you/your wife...the most telling words in your comment are “my ideas.” It won’t work to open her up if it is your ideas. It has to be hers. All you can do is plant seeds letting her know you love her so much that she is free to be herself and then detach from outcomes.
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@bluefinstudios · 
It's funny, but I am gong to reuse a comment I made elsewhere recently

Each of us, has a few different selves we show:
1 we show to the larger world.
1 we show to our local town, slightly more open.
1 we show to our closest friends and family.
and 1 we show, to no one. sometimes we are even afraid to show true self to ourselves.
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@steemed-open · 
True. But my dream and my work is to integrate those separate selves into one and be wholly authentic in more and more settings . It’s challenging though..,old roles we are used to playing, fulfilling others expectations who are comfortable with the old games...
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@bluefinstudios · 
well, it is hard, fighting human nature in fact.
People often have a hard time showing that true inner self. it is a great goal.
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@hanamana · 
I like your openness to being sexy and naked.   Thanks for sharing your real naked self.
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@steemed-open · 
☺️
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@poodai · 
Brene Brown is amazing. I recently finished her *The Power of Vulnerability* audiobook and I'm very facinated how all her research is based on shame. I'll be honest I was being naughty and searched up NSFW on steem, and you were the first post that I found. I'm recovering from my porn addiction and this felt like the universe sent me here to engage my brain elsewhere. To plant my seeds in places where love grow in abundance and acceptance like the nutrient rich soil inside our soul.  Thank you for sharing your vulnerability. I see you and I send you my love and courage to heal against all your odds.
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@steemed-open · 
Forgive me for  a late reply to such a great comment. Thank you for *seeing* me and sending love. I adore that you found me from peeking at NSFW. So while cheating on your own commitment to break your porn addition you stumbled on some wisdom and authenticity. I *see* you back...your struggles and your beautiful humanity. Thank you for your honest comment. Hugs
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@poodai · 
<3
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@tts · 
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@usman119 · (edited)
Why you take
  <div class="phishy">mirror </div> 
down of you?
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@steemed-open · 
What are you talking about? It’s still up… Turn off your not safe for work setting
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@wakkylyon · (edited)
I for one,  still have this struggle, I deeply relate with all these... Struggling with vulnerability, rejection, depression, and the likes... Yet I'm all shiny and strong on the outside, which is somewhat real too... But I want to be truly happy, and not have to struggle so hard to find a little stability, and I never want to fake my peace anymore... I love your name all the more now, many of your blogs are now better explained,  and hope I can have that experience soon, you know, vulnerable but don't wanna run and hide, just be!
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@steemed-open · 
Maybe we always have this struggle to an extent. We are human, you know? I guess it’s just about awareness of it so the defense mechanisms aren’t running our life show based on fear  and avoidance. Just be, sister! 💗Thank you so much for your thoughtful comments lately. I’m very glad we’ve connected here. 😊🙏🏽
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@wakkylyon · 
"Fear" and "Avoidance"- key words. Thanks a lot. I say this to people a lot, but I'm about to have my own show. Really glad I can talk to you like this, you have no idea, but I think I've always wanted this somehow... It's refreshing. I look forward to your blogs, those photos speak volumes.
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