It’s not a love story; not a hate story either. Do you know, if you tell someone not to hurt you, they’ll hurt more? It’s like their instincts kick in, like a child who’s told not to act upon his rage but shoves the neighbor’s kid from the merry-go-round just because he wanted to. Just like some people, they can’t help but hurt others, not intentionally, but they do it; they can’t stop themselves. <center>https://i.pinimg.com/564x/ee/d8/79/eed87935929cba829b0df65c20ba80f5.jpg [Image](https://www.pinterest.com/pin/844493667675287/)</center> I remember the day I first found out about his bipolar behaviour. I knew he had a drink; he didn't hide that from me. But that day was different. I could sense just a hint, but I shrugged it off. For me, it was a beautiful evening. We took a little drive to the beach after sunset. I like sea breeze at this hour; he knew. The cool salty wind, the waves crashing at my feet; I’ll be shifting as soon as the soil underneath my feet would wash away. The beaches are less crowded at this hour. You may occasionally see a crow flying by. We were walking by the shore for what seemed like hours; he was tipsy. He asked me if I wanted to ride the boat; I refused. I was afraid one or both of us may fall in the water in this dark; he didn’t take it well. “You don’t have a sense of adventure,” he said, and I saw him walking towards the sea with his back turned around. It was as if he didn’t give a shit about anything. I was a bit puzzled, I have never seen him like this before. I thought he was messing with me, but then he took a dive. I rush to him but I didn’t find him; I called him out but no answer. He popped up a few feet away from me; I was befuddled. “Are you crazy? Are you out of your mind?” I said and he laughed. “Did you get scared, Azure?” he started running towards the coast after saying that. I stared at his way for a while in disbelief. I couldn’t recognize him, no, I recognized him, but I didn’t want to believe. He called some guy and a few minutes later he came back with a bottle. Yea, you can guess what that bottle was. I don’t know why I didn’t stop him from drinking; to him, I guess my face said it all, and he assured me he’s fine. He was “acting” fine for a while; so nonchalant, so happy. He was ranting many things and suddenly I could see his behavior shifting. He was angry; at the world, at everyone and everything around him, including him. It frustrated him, his own existence, and all I could see that he was in pain. “Why don’t you just leave? huh? Just leave me alone!!!” he screamed. I said, “Fine. If that’s what you want.” I called his friend to drop us at home. But I didn’t leave him that day, I couldn’t. I loved him; love him. And that love broke me into million pieces; not my heart but me. No matter how much I try, I can’t piece it together; I look like a broken porcelain doll whose cracks of glued pieces are still visible. He used to tell me he’s a volcano and I’m a cyclone. It will destroy everything in the process; I didn’t pay attention to that statement. His violent outbursts, picking fights for no reason, insane jealousy, I overlooked all the red flags. I just didn’t want to see anything beyond his quality. Even with a perfect pair of eyes, I was blind; what an irony. I still remember how he would call me Mon Azure and my heart would skip a beat every time; that hasn’t changed at all. But unlike previous times when I forgave him, I now blame him for every littlest thing; also for the things that weren’t his fault. I became... him. [Mon Azure](https://hive.blog/ocd/@surrealfia/mon-azure) <center> ![surrealfia.gif](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/surrealfia/SUBYDj1S-surrealfia.gif)</center>
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arcange | 0 | 197,185,794,986 | 3% | ||
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raphaelle | 0 | 3,033,431,095 | 3% | ||
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tycho | 0 | 264,943,846 | 100% | ||
walterjay | 0 | 2,981,231,167 | 0.52% | ||
steemitboard | 0 | 6,567,583,632 | 2% | ||
dune69 | 0 | 1,029,591,671 | 6.03% | ||
iansart | 0 | 11,445,311,955 | 6.7% | ||
ecoinstant | 0 | 594,739,618,694 | 100% | ||
cryptoknight12 | 0 | 965,683,505,297 | 100% | ||
alphacore | 0 | 31,179,979,659 | 5.37% | ||
bien | 0 | 712,995,175 | 20% | ||
eturnerx | 0 | 1,205,699,910,308 | 31.2% | ||
shitsignals | 0 | 3,108,242,447 | 6.7% | ||
pixelfan | 0 | 34,629,069,542 | 5.7% | ||
dineroconopcion | 0 | 549,294,111 | 6.7% | ||
zonabitcoin | 0 | 568,162,855 | 6.7% | ||
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felander | 0 | 31,588,033,352 | 6.7% | ||
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deathwing | 0 | 31,367,260,478 | 6.7% | ||
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thekittygirl | 0 | 430,091,720,593 | 100% | ||
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wiseagent | 0 | 137,423,893,283 | 25% | ||
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jaquevital | 0 | 1,647,414,981 | 30% | ||
upfundme | 0 | 1,542,850,959 | 15% | ||
mastergerund | 0 | 16,441,363,213 | 100% | ||
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rem-steem | 0 | 22,457,409,071 | 20% | ||
haikusailor | 0 | 568,378,329 | 6.7% | ||
olaexcel | 0 | 7,135,713,824 | 25% | ||
mfblack | 0 | 3,203,229,517 | 6.36% | ||
coredump | 0 | 108,991,452 | 20% | ||
trxjjbtc | 0 | 523,309,181 | 6.7% | ||
threejay | 0 | 2,010,425,523 | 3.35% | ||
steemindian | 0 | 560,099,331 | 3.35% | ||
milu-the-dog | 0 | 2,943,529,895 | 6.7% | ||
triplea.bot | 0 | 1,834,037,205 | 6.7% | ||
steem.leo | 0 | 66,902,435,638 | 6.7% | ||
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botante | 0 | 2,376,562,950 | 1% | ||
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maxuvd | 0 | 29,916,769,197 | 8% | ||
bilpcoinbot | 0 | 553,601,657 | 25% | ||
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huaren.news | 0 | 53,567,696,305 | 100% | ||
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crc | 0 | 0 | 10% | ||
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Wow, what a great story! I thought it was a recounting from your life until I saw the **#fiction** tag at the bottom. Loved this! Bravo! 💗
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thank you so much... really appreciated it... though I feel like I should be more detailed... but I'll keep on trying
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Wow!! I read every single word in this post. It's beautiful, i thought it was a real life experience. I love it 💗
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thank you so much
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Your welcome.
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