Thoughts From My Study Table by syedumair

hive-161155 · @syedumair · Jun 26 '20

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Thoughts From My Study Table

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There isn't a day when I go to bed making plans for tomorrow. You see, I am a student, studying, trying very hard to taste success but sometimes it feels like I should already be a millionaire by now.

A couple of years ago, we started building a new house for ourselves and I thought to myself that I will help my parents financially to build this. I had my eyes on steem, I thought it will moon but it kept dropping and I couldn't help my parents. 

I made promises to my loved ones and friends that I will do this and that but I couldn't do anything. Sometimes I look in the mirror and remind myself of the lofty goals I had. Now all those dreams and goals have faded. 

You know, I am not able to concentrate on my studies. Every time I go to bed, I set a target for tomorrow but I never complete it, not even half of that. Trust me, I know I am capable of more but somehow I always miss out. 

I'll forget some of my friends if I start counting them, for I have plenty but I don't talk to them. It's not because I don't like to but more because I want to be in solitude. I wasn't like this always. I think I am losing myself.

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