I really try to enjoy the present whilst keeping one eye on how many bulls before I'm 50.  Surely we can both sort something out by then!  

Change is powerful, as long as one realizes and believes that it is never too late to start a shift. Take that chance and indulge yourself in those activities that make you happy and satisfaction, despite of the fact that you have to go outside of your safety zone.

Midlife crises can as well be positive phase of a person's life, that ripe sparks of development for good changes. Using this time for self-examination is not always easy but the gained understanding and experience can be essential keys to a person's growth.

So, it sounds like your company was the cause of a super spreader event huh? :)  As far as I know, I have never gotten Covid this whole time.  Which is honestly pretty hard for me to believe so maybe I had a mild case and I just never realized it.  Maybe I was asymptomatic or whatever they say.  I'm a little bit over 45, so my midlife crisis days are past me I hope.  I never really had any crazy impulses, but I have tried to be healthier and as I get closer to retirement I start thinking about what the next stage of my life might look like.  Ultimately, I realized I am only halfway through and I still have a long ways to go (hopefully!).

 BTC is way up now, time to cash out and get the sports car, I recommend a BMW and 

It is really pleasant for you that you intend to face what may be the priorities for you and for your family. The refusal to accept the social norms of a forced happiness and illegal trade is a courageous choice that very often ends to a greater life fulfilment and purpose.

> freedom at the expense of meaning

I find plenty of meaning dancing with my friends at the club. My midlife crisis led me back to teaching in the classroom and strengthening the relationship with my partner who is 15 years younger.

Oops it sounds not ok. Get well soon stay safe 

Dear my bro @tarazkp !
News is spreading in the East Asian world that the European economy is currently collapsing!
There are also rumors that Europe's economic recession will cause World War III.
Do you agree with the news?

In reality, decision making is composed of what is at hand and the simple breaks of routine that can get you closer to your intended lifestyle and goals.

I had not ever gone through this premise before; thus, my perspective on success was also profoundly influenced by the societal conditioning. Resisting the social rules and ideas and remaining true to yourself, despite the odds is both an overwhelmingly courageous and freeing journey.

Sucks that you're sick.
>I have come to the current conclusion, that it is better to act with purpose, even if it ultimately results in failure, than to be successful at meeting the goals of our social conditioning.

And *that* is why, as @owasco wisely pointed out, you'll never be a bitter old man. You're too resourceful for that, I think, and too accountable. You know it's on you to steer this ship (few people who seem to know it so well, actually). From what I've seen, bitterness comes from people who ignore that fact or don't know it at all.

My therapist says you never stop considering what you wanna do with your life. I think you're right. It's very healthy to be considering. Now, not later. Get well soon, Taraz :)

Every single individual's path admitting to one's own self is unique and no well-known formula is there. Trust your inner voice and go with the decisions that will make you feel the best since that is what your values and dreams are all about.

During this exploration, keep in mind that it is not only normal but, sometimes, a challenge that needs to be navigated through one's own inner resources. You reach that point, it doesn't really matter what is your helping hand - support group, mentor or the closest friend, they can all bring a positive change to your life.

This is very important especially now when things are so unpredictable. unfortunately I got to know that you had coved19, however, according to your positive approach and eagerness to bounce back, it proves to be offerable. I wish you a fast and smooth recovery!

I hope you get better soon. As for evaluating your life, I think it's a good thing. Technology has been changing quickly, and there have been layoffs in the tech industry in the US. It may be difficult to know which ones will be affected, but it wouldn't hurt to get training and try to go up the company ladder. People management seems to be relatively safe for now.

You will never be a bitter old man. You do not have the makings of one. I think you can take that off the list of things that keep you up at night. 

>it is better to act with purpose, even if it ultimately results in failure, than to be successful at meeting the goals of our social conditioning.

Given that the social conditioning has reached surreal levels, pushing us to become things other than what we are, I agree with this. Slavery of the mind is not freedom. 

I swear, I can feel the fever heating your words in this. Screw cleaning! Get in bed!

Generally, every individual is bound to thinks about which career path to follow and what up-to-date objectives to set as such occurrences as birthdays are coming nearer. There is no such thing as being too late in this time in your life if you still end up reassessing and pursuing the new goals or directions that you believe in your core.

Sorry about your health. I can imagine how it will feel to be treating Covid at the moment. Just stay safe and I wish you a fast recovery 

I hope you get much better tomorrow and recover soon. 
Midlife thinking is a good practice. Taking the time to look back, see what you have accomplished, and think about the future is something every one of us should do at least once a year, no matter what age you are.
It is good to dream about crypto wealth growth, especially now that the market seems to start moving strongly up for a few days (although we need a stronger up move for Hive yet).

Get well soon mate. Here, we have been struggling against three viruses (Corona, Influenza, RSV) all the winter.