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I'd like to say that the kitchen is now finished, but unfortunately, that is far from the truth - while it isn't "that far" from completion, the challenge is that due to several delays, we have kept losing workers to other jobs when we need them and because they are on other jobs, other workers have to be pushed back too. It is frustrating for everyone concerned, especially as it really isn't anyone's fault, it is just a series of hiccups that lead to the next burp.

>I am running out of energy.

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Wouldn't it be nice to be able to just plug-in and recharge - a hybrid, pulling in energy from the socket when needed? I wonder if people would work more or less if they could do that. 

I know a guy from a couple decades ago who had trained himself to sleep two hours a day and he was working two shifts of a job, one in the Pacific area, the other in the US. In between he was going to the gym and reading, as well as learning an instrument. He had twenty two hours of the day to do as he pleased and he *never* seemed, *nor looked* tired. 

>I'm not much of a maximizer.

*Unfortunately.*

And what I mean by "unfortunately" is that while I might not be inclined to maximize financial matters, I am also not keen to maximize anything in my life, including my own potential. This makes me wonder what my "full potential" might look like in an alternate universe. 

>What are the highest heights of my own ability?

I think that one of the things that is so attractive about sports, is that it is on that scale of testing potential at the higher end, satisfying our own curiosity as to what we might be able to do ourselves - Even if we couldn't. It allows us to get the sense of glory by association

>They are human, I am human. They can do that, I could do it too.

And I think that this is what upsets us when we discover someone has been "cheating" using a steroid, as we feel cheated, because it means, *we couldn't do that after all.* It was "assisted".

But, if we want to *be our best,* why is it that using aids to get there is so frowned upon? Why is it that if a person uses some kind of patch to quit smoking, they are seen as having no will power? Why is it that if a musician uses drugs to unlock parts of their brain that were inaccessible otherwise, it lessens their music in the eyes of the audience? 

For example, a colleague asked me about how I am doing since the stroke and was interested what kinds of treatments I got - which was *none.* Because I tested average or above in the cognitive function tests, they said they won't help me. However, I also mentioned that there are studies around the world where hallucinogens like LSD are being successfully used in treatment, and my colleague responded negatively, because, 

> *Drugs are bad.*

So, people would like me to be better, as long as the way to get better doesn't infringe on their social conditioning of morality around different substances, most of which they have *zero experience* with themselves, nor have ever looked into in any way. 

>*It is interesting, no?*

We all have these imaginary lines we draw in the sand as to what is right or wrong, but as our own conditions change, our "ethical position" can change quite radically, especially if ourselves or someone we care for is suffering. Having the distance allows us to judge, but when it is happening to us, we want the *best opportunity* for recovery and improvement.

>If we could recharge?

Most likely, like pretty much everything in this life, it will be abused by some to get advantage over others, so rather than making our lives better, it will end up making our lives worse. It is like with all of the promise of nuclear power to provide energy, we limit its potential because we choose to make weapons with it instead. We do the same for pretty much every innovation - rather than improving the best we can be, we use it to control others.

*Out of energy.*


Taraz
[ Gen1: Hive ]


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