I wish to find joy among angry men The lightness of a willing soul Carving a permanent smile On my dismembered pain. The thrill of inner freedom Whispers that there is more wisdom In relinquished societal chains. I wish to find my footing In a world where everything is taken Other than my broken. These unsettled chaos Remind me of my undecided spirit Cruising down the normalized paths Only to get lost. I wish to be left alone to be Nothing more than my weird self The act of trying to fit in Is confined within my skin. ![PSX_20200918_234326.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/tezmel/pJLePY2E-PSX_20200918_234326.jpg) The above piece is more of a freewrite than it is poetry. More has been really looking enticing and I can't seem to quench my desire to grasp everything. There is an opportunity here, if the clock hands weren't as fast and undeterred. They said time waits for no man and my day has already been halved by parental responsibilities. A rat race that sometimes demands more time than the actual being there as a parent. It gets worse especially when the whats coming through the wallet doesn't match the effort. <center>https://images.hive.blog/DQmVe1b9TVHTSrTT1fk2ZoHgxQZUGqaAyTY6YfzYfuSx7qb/signature.png</center>
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matt-a | 0 | 624,346,131 | 1.5% | ||
gikitiki | 0 | 2,502,563,853 | 4.64% | ||
katharsisdrill | 0 | 988,755,504,489 | 69% | ||
ethandsmith | 0 | 12,751,027,956 | 2.32% | ||
tarazkp | 0 | 5,324,853,914,944 | 100% | ||
tabea | 0 | 6,254,768,083 | 4.63% | ||
jagged | 0 | 1,311,070,296 | 1.39% | ||
roomservice | 0 | 58,984,942,605 | 1.38% | ||
mys | 0 | 753,460,418 | 1.1% | ||
steempearls | 0 | 0 | 2.31% | ||
improv | 0 | 878,298,668 | 6.25% | ||
whd | 0 | 1,466,358,695 | 1.1% | ||
ruth-girl | 0 | 451,581,506,211 | 100% | ||
felt.buzz | 0 | 9,182,913,005 | 2.32% | ||
djlethalskillz | 0 | 1,774,151,976 | 5% | ||
markjason | 0 | 1,376,030,503 | 4.64% | ||
mariannewest | 0 | 280,920,022,706 | 100% | ||
therealwolf | 0 | 545,309,024,671 | 1.85% | ||
jlsplatts | 0 | 9,446,755,876 | 1% | ||
fknmayhem | 0 | 2,852,691,999 | 6.12% | ||
smartsteem | 0 | 110,398,859,156 | 1.85% | ||
not-a-bird | 0 | 22,454,500,266 | 100% | ||
mikitaly | 0 | 1,527,503,536 | 30% | ||
sco | 0 | 6,541,820,830 | 5.56% | ||
bennettitalia | 0 | 9,400,787,943 | 10% | ||
hadji | 0 | 558,938,451 | 4.64% | ||
lemony-cricket | 0 | 43,802,430,096 | 4.64% | ||
warpedpoetic | 0 | 4,068,944,078 | 9.28% | ||
hazem91 | 0 | 78,794,686,749 | 100% | ||
madefrance | 0 | 4,816,264,437 | 9.28% | ||
blervin | 0 | 5,546,499,713 | 9.28% | ||
thebluewin | 0 | 1,418,792,390 | 9.28% | ||
forester-joe | 0 | 695,438,988 | 1.5% | ||
isgledysduarte | 0 | 1,448,100,591 | 25% | ||
azircon | 0 | 1,190,962,514,668 | 7.88% | ||
sustainablelivin | 0 | 1,399,460,930 | 12.5% | ||
tijntje | 0 | 805,920,460 | 4.64% | ||
payroll | 0 | 82,875,617,302 | 2% | ||
saboin | 0 | 28,562,447,120 | 2.98% | ||
ntowl | 0 | 553,078,945 | 12.5% | ||
freewritehouse | 0 | 130,666,769,940 | 25% | ||
wolfofnostreet | 0 | 1,015,966,837 | 4.64% | ||
remotehorst23 | 0 | 15,066,254,362 | 9.28% | ||
attention-seeker | 0 | 4,143,847,963 | 100% | ||
tech-coin | 0 | 3,316,202,389 | 100% | ||
julian2013 | 0 | 616,145,187 | 0.49% | ||
voxmortis | 0 | 1,998,080,343 | 0.92% | ||
coinmarketcal | 0 | 7,708,020,676 | 11% | ||
laissez-faire | 0 | 63,512,332 | 100% | ||
macoolette | 0 | 10,665,375,430 | 2.78% | ||
milky-concrete | 0 | 15,814,579,106 | 4.64% | ||
new-steemit | 0 | 76,793,952,328 | 9.28% | ||
adalger | 0 | 10,983,461,054 | 0.92% | ||
props | 0 | 768,051,682 | 100% | ||
loch | 0 | 753,483,944 | 25% | ||
star-x | 0 | 15,429,024,664 | 100% | ||
robmojo | 0 | 2,181,538,701 | 0.92% | ||
sergeyberkova | 0 | 3,442,135,677 | 100% | ||
juliamulcahy | 0 | 671,341,888 | 12.5% | ||
coinmarketcal2 | 0 | 9,141,507,484 | 100% | ||
daijiworld | 0 | 12,228,855,027 | 100% | ||
bergelmirsenpai | 0 | 1,298,685,858 | 22.5% | ||
epicdice | 0 | 20,723,578,308 | 2.78% | ||
bigmoneyman | 0 | 901,463,053 | 50% | ||
likwid | 0 | 764,221,931 | 0.09% | ||
tinyhousecryptos | 0 | 528,407,153 | 5% | ||
thisisawesome | 0 | 327,604,259,937 | 100% | ||
iamjohn | 0 | 3,053,721,169 | 50% | ||
good.game | 0 | 3,007,340,147 | 9.28% | ||
babytarazkp | 0 | 3,326,925,732 | 50% | ||
martthesquire | 0 | 5,535,553,357 | 100% | ||
awesomecuration | 0 | 20,038,900,193 | 90% | ||
iamraincrystal | 0 | 35,772,288,545 | 20% | ||
curangel | 0 | 6,312,411,059,481 | 9.28% | ||
urtrailer | 0 | 1,163,906,522 | 0.25% | ||
joshmania | 0 | 5,330,693,815 | 4.64% | ||
isaria-ccc | 0 | 939,041,436 | 25% | ||
sandymeyer | 0 | 26,430,654,063 | 9.28% | ||
tariqul.bibm | 0 | 1,060,321,557 | 3.94% | ||
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx | 0 | 760,152,075 | 12.5% | ||
dpend.active | 0 | 2,021,113,196 | 1.85% | ||
hiveonboard | 0 | 1,702,595,523 | 1.38% | ||
spirall | 0 | 1,319,854,741 | 4.64% | ||
arenacrypto | 0 | 1,109,377,503 | 6.96% | ||
tinta-tertuang | 0 | 531,513,935 | 100% |
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author | hivebuzz |
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category | hive-161155 |
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Alas! A feeling some can totally relate with.. Thank you for sharing this with us πππΌ ![](https://i.imgur.com/x1dCzpA.png) *Made in Canva* [@thisisawesome](https://peakd.com/@thisisawesome) Moderator ___ *This post is AWESOME!* *It will therefore get a manual 100% upvote from [@thisisawesome](https://peakd.com/@thisisawesome) (will be done today), for the **Awesome Daily Highlights** in category **Freewrite**, we give out 1 such vote in that category per day, plus 4 more in other categories, and your post will also be featured in todayβs **Awesome Daily Curation** report for more visibility.* *The goal of this project is to "highlight **Awesome Content**, and growing the Hive ecosystem by rewarding it".* ![](https://media1.tenor.com/images/4540dfba15e6b58368d794f3fa71bdbb/tenor.gif) [Source](https://tenor.com/view/colin-mochrie-whos-awesome-you-are-whos-line-isit-anyway-youreawesome-gif-11655828)
author | iamraincrystal |
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permlink | re-tezmel-2020919t10628992z |
category | hive-161155 |
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Thank you! You are awesome too :)
author | tezmel |
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