Love's Changing Faces by tezmel

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poetry · @tezmel · Nov 8 '19 (edited)

$6.05

Love's Changing Faces

At 10 years old,
Love was my mother's eyes
It was tucked away in her radiant smile
The curves of her melanin face 
Giving in to the simple joys in life.


At 12 years old,
Love was delicious story books
It was the smell of new books
The ink crawling in aligned alphabets
Calling on my curious soul.


At 14 years old,
Rahab stole my heart
Just like the one in the good book
I followed her shadow close
Hoping it would get less confusing.

At 15 years old, 
Love was cruelly taken away from me
Death visited shrouded in a drizzling morning 
To carry with it a free spirit 
That used to guide my lost one home.

At 17 years old,
Love was a responsibility 
It was a move to give in to the society 
Till I was served ice on my broken 
Bottling the unspoken.


At 23 years old,
Love translated to insurmountable pain 
It was a continuous ripping pain
Choking me from the inside
Like an invisible arthritic hand.

At 30 years old,
Love was distant rumours 
Fading from the high ice walls
Surrounding my cold deliberating heart
Taking with it the warmth of my face.

At 33 years old,
Love was younger than me
It was lust lurking in smoke tasting lips
Whispering to my hormones dirty things
While getting high at 4 in the morning.

At this shook age,
Love is more elusive than anything 
It is seductively packed in the wrong souls
Calling to my disappointed self
From every misread kind move.

[![heart-2280933-640.jpg](https://i.postimg.cc/SN1PHypz/heart-2280933-640.jpg)](https://postimg.cc/SJ8VMbRy)

<center>[RawPixel/Pixabay.](https://pixabay.com/photos/heart-silhouette-sun-love-hands-2280933/)</center>

<center>*Looking to walk back into poetry and prose like I never left :)*</center>

<center>*Cross Posted.*</center>

<center>**BQ.**</center>

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@aislingcronin · Nov 5 '19

What a rich and thought-provoking piece! Thank you so much for sharing. ❤

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@tezmel · Nov 5 '19

It's those pieces born out of other reads and single lines. It's unedited even!

Thank you for the kind words always. You have been missed 💕🌺

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@aislingcronin · Nov 5 '19

It's unedited and raw - I like it. Thank you! I still pop up every now and then. 😊

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👍 tezmel

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@helpiecake · Nov 8 '19

Hello! 

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@tezmel · Nov 8 '19

♡♡♡

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@sunravelme · Nov 8 '19

This post has been selected for curation by @sunravelme. It has been upvoted and will be featured in this week's <a href="https://steemit.com/curation/@sunravelme/768wrb-working-title-msp-creative-writing-curation">Working Title</a> post. It will also be considered for the official @minnowsupport curation post and if selected will be resteemed from the main account. Feel free to join us on <a href="minnowpond.org">Discord</a>!

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@tezmel · Nov 8 '19

I can't be more humbled. Thank you so much... ~~and to think I was struggling whether to post this!~~ 

:)

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@wandrnrose7 · Nov 6 '19

$0.02

I have had a similar path and broken has meant reevaluating love and others who I thought I knew. The path to trust is long and twisted when it first is demolished,  but love is still in you having first been planted. Beautiful testament.

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@tezmel · Nov 6 '19

I am a feeling person so I know how far away the path to trust is right now for me. Wading my way towards it as hard as I can. 

Thank you 💕

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@wandrnrose7 · Nov 6 '19

$0.02

Hugs @tezmel. I know that journey. Sending courage and peace your way.

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👍 dustsweeper, tezmel

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