It's great to be able to hear your voice again Ed.  I appreciate you not pretending to know things you don't, because that is what people dedicated to speaking the truth do.  Regarding vaccine safety, it is important to note that VAERS is certainly a gross understatement of the actual numbers of vaccine injuries.  IIRC, estimates have ranged as low as 1% of injured parties reporting.  Many things cause people to not report vaccine injuries, including not knowing their medical issue was reportable, not wanting to confront doctors, and the mental gymnastics you report here.

Recently a dear friend of mine was vaccinated.  Twice I've taken them to hospital since then barely alive, and the last time they were life-flighted to a big city hospital where I hope they're still alive.  I can't visit them because of the damn rules, and I can only hope the ICU staff treat them well and successfully.  

Their case is not listed on VAERS, and no doctor has even mentioned the possibility the vaccine could be a factor in their sudden decline in health.  I am not family, and cannot discuss their health with doctors due to privacy laws.  I can't report their case to VAERS.

I will not be willingly vaccinated. Nothing has more convinced me to refuse than the sight of my friend trembling at the point of death on a hospital bed in the ER.  I have no ability to pinpoint the cause of my friend's illness, and neither do doctors refusing or unable to test for cryptic adjuvants they are unaware of being in vaccines.

All I know is my friend is dying after getting the covid vaccine, and I intend to die of something else.

Thanks!