Fear by toushik

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hive-190212 · @toushik · Mar 16 '22

$35.66

Fear

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Whenever I come across a mistake, someone comes up to me and says, are you not afraid of death? Then my inner soul started screaming and saying I never fear death. I was not afraid when the rough current of that angry river swept my life. I was not afraid when my life was trying to escape from me again and again. The enemies of nature would give me two chances. Choose between red and blue pills. I was not given any option as an alternative to that.

It felt like a millennium-old war to me. Where a balance was being struck between good and evil, that doesn't mean I'm not afraid of anything. I am immune to all fears. Honestly, I get more fear than others. I fear almost everything that a normal human being should be afraid of. I don't like blood, killing, war, violence, snakes, and even colorful caterpillars. All the fears sometimes blow cold air into my inner spine.

Even my whole body is sweating out of fear. Even then, I would say I am not afraid of death. Sometimes it seems like all of this may have been made up in the history of a stupid lunatic. You may think so too. You might even think of me, what I'm writing about, what I'm talking about, I may not understand anything. But it's happening to me.

Well, can I ask you a question, what are you most afraid of in your life? No, you don't have to answer this question right now. You will think about it and then ask yourself. This process is taught to us from childhood. When I didn't want to sleep, I was scared of ghosts. When I didn't want to eat, I was scared not to grow up. Our brain is entirely rational and concludes with a lot of things. But even after that, I grew up fearing my mother's words. Our brain usually refers to fear with an object, dead or alive and binds it to us.

The second episode started with something abstract in me. I had an idea that was full of superhumanity or insignificance. We were living in a superstition. A daily rule that was slowly becoming irrational with technology. Which is working theological fundamentalism among the ordinary people, which was becoming harmful. At one point, I found the universal correct answer to fear: change. A recurring condition can affect a person's life journey through change for better or worse. This may seem like a challenging fact to you.

My precious memories were drowned a few more meters deep in the muddy rainwater of the Karnafuli River. Repeatedly some words keep coming up with the current. Often reminds me that I will continue like this? Will I survive in that world of superstition, and will my legacy end that way? Will the word fear sink into the tide with us? Will not come back with any new possibilities. I feel like I'm on top of it. I let fate take me wherever it wants me to go.

After a while, the tide swept me ashore again. It gives me some more experience and the power to realize omniscience. Sometimes it is better to leave everything to fate because our destiny knows everything in advance.

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@gangstalking · Mar 16 '22

The people doing V2K with remote neural monitoring want me to believe this lady @battleaxe is an operator. She is involved deeply with her group and @fyrstikken . Her discord is Battleaxe#1003. I cant prove she is the one directly doing the V2K and RNM. Doing it requires more than one person at the least. It cant be done alone. She cant prove she is not one of the ones doing it. I was drugged in my home covertly, it ended badly. They have tried to kill me and are still trying to kill me. I bet nobody does anything at all. Ask @battleaxe to prove it. I bet she wont. They want me to believe the V2K and RNM in me is being broadcast from her location. And what the fuck is "HOMELAND SECURITY" doing about this shit? I think stumbling over their own dicks maybe? Just like they did and are doing with the Havana Syndrome. They are reckless and should have shown the proper media what they had before taking me hostage for 5 years. What would you say while having a gun pointed at your head from an undisclosed location? Have people find it? My hands are tied while they play like children with a gun to my head. Its a terrorist act on American soil while some yawn and say its not real or Im a mental case. Many know its real. This is an ignored detrimental to humanity domestic threat. Ask informed soldiers in the American military what their oath is and tell them about the day you asked me why. Nobody has I guess. Maybe someone told ill informed soldiers they cant protect America from military leaders in control with ill intent. How do we protect locked up soldiers from telling the truth? https://ecency.com/fyrstikken/@fairandbalanced/i-am-the-only-motherfucker-on-the-internet-pointing-to-a-direct-source-for-voice-to-skull-electronic-terrorism

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@malopie · Mar 17 '22

I'd say I'm equally triggered by most of the things humans fear, but my greatest reaction comes with falling. By this, I mean letting people win a debate over my life.


We see this everyday, and personal, it's just annoying. I hate it when people come up and say things not carrying any valid points about my life, my greatest fear comes in ever letting them have a chance to affirm their knowledge of me, perhaps with the phrase **"I knew it"**, accompanied with the rest of the bullshits...

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